CLaRa's Majestic Century

忙

2011-03-10T08:53:00.003+08:00

最近很忙。
但不知道自己忙什麼。
總之就是忙！

How to Overcome Feelings of Guilt

2010-08-11T22:09:00.000+08:00

Got to say...

I, CLaRa
DISLIKE
the
FEELINGS
of
GUILT
that has been bothering me!!!
Kill me BAHHHH!!

bang bang bang >.<

August, The Eight Day of The Month

2010-08-08T21:07:00.002+08:00

Time flies and without realizing it, it’s the 8 August, the eight day of the month... Sometimes I want it be fast but sometimes not, perhaps there may be a reason when I want it to be fast right, Clara (=

My body is becoming weak recently. My fever is keeps on coming and not long after the recovery, it comes again. Besides having fever, I have been suffering from running nose. It is the one which made me feel terrible day and night especially when I eat and sleep >.< I really have no appetite to eat when those foods feel tasteless.

I’m wondering if my daily life is getting better than when I was studying out there last time. I do take my meals and rest on time, how come I’ll still fall sick? I am the kind of people who easily get sick since young and I need to vaccine every 2 years when the antibodies are insufficient in my body. With regards to this matter, I really should have faith in Lord that He will completely heal me in this situation or else I really don’t know who I should be looking for. Do keep me in prayers, my dear Friends in Christ. Thank you.

Nothing special in my life recently, besides working, it’s still working. My life is full of works and learning, but I do enjoy it. It’s better than staying at home and do nothing.

I always tell myself that it’s worth the time and effort. I make it as my goal to please Lord. So when things don’t seem to work, or they are difficult, or even when we don’t get it right this time, stay on course. The training is for the future, so don’t regret it or fret. Lord is with me.

But the bad thing is that, my heart is still not stable in my hometown here. Don’t feel like staying here for long time, but with the plans I have, it’s always worth fighting for, isn’t it?

All I can tell myself is that, be patient and wait for the next step, else parents cannot see what effort I have put into my life and how responsible I am in my daily life. Perhaps I should show them a good result first. May God bless me abundantly.

To be continued……

29 July, 2010

2010-07-29T23:25:00.001+08:00

Recently I have been too busy learning and besides learning, I’m still learning. I am wondering how come I never felt so tired during my uni days back then? Perhaps, there’s no more extra time for me to go out to chill myself down or to play like back in the old days anymore? And I grew up finally! Oh well…take it easy, Clara! Soon you will get used to it!

Secondly, while I’m busy, I realized that my temper is slowly starting to grow short. I get angry recently easily, but thank God that I’m not showing emotions on my face but only inside my heart. Or else I guess there will be many people who want to kill me because of my black face.

I am wondering again this afternoon and asked Lord that, “Lord, how long do You think I can withstand? “and praying to God, please don’t let my short-temper take over me!!

Thirdly, I guess I need to pray for myself to have a forgiving heart when someone said something that they shouldn’t have said. Seriously I am very “... ....” these two days. But well, I don’t care also! Hehehe <.<

Ephesians 4:29

²⁹Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen.

People, this bible verse really helped me a lot. So do read and meditate yourself when you guys see this! Hope it helps.

Lastly, to be continued (=

Morning Devotion: Watch, Pray, Consider N Grow Wise...

2010-07-20T07:16:00.006+08:00

^{Proverbs 24:30-32

30} I went past the field of the sluggard,
past the vineyard of the man who lacks judgment;

³¹ thorns had come up everywhere,
the ground was covered with weeds,
and the stone wall was in ruins.

³² I applied my heart to what I observed
and learned a lesson from what I saw:..."

The thing that characterized the Life of someone that God called wise was the DISCIPLINE to apply heart to and learn from the everyday things that happened around....

I don't want to walk through Life oblivious. I want to take notice of and learn from the things God brings my way to instruct and change me.

But it takes work on my part! It won't just drop into my lap. I want to make the most every opportunity. And I know You do too (=

Father, May I be an instrument of Your Love. Use me to make a difference to someone listening to the concert of my Life. In Jesus' name, Amen.

Seven One Seven, 717, July 17 !!!

2010-07-17T21:45:00.001+08:00

Well, it’s been a while since I last posted here. I had been in hometown for a month already.

Recently, there are people around me who like to know what my following plan is. Hahaha normally I won’t answer their question and will only show them my face -_- and tell them “can we change topic?” because I really answered this kinda of question about thousands of times? Perhaps I have thousand of friends too HAHAHAHA!!!

Oh well, people!!! Do not worry about my future for future will worry about itself…weeeeee sounds familiar? HAHAHA.

In Matthew 6:25-34 Do not Worry

25"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?

28"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' 32For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

Well people, I should apologize if I told you not to worry about my future because it’s doesn’t mean that people can’t ask or care about me hahaha just that I really don’t have my answer to it too and that’s why I can’t answer you guys! Please don’t cut ties with me because of this because I still hope to maintain my thousand list of friends HAHAHA just joking!

The reason why I’m posting these bible verses here are because Lord reminds me about His word and I know there’s no point to worry so much about what my next plan is and perhaps 33seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. In Matthew 7:7"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. But people, please do not misunderstand my word here because of “no point to worry”. This doesn’t mean that I don’t have to worry and do nothing! All I have do is ASK, SEEK and KNOCK while seeking for the next step! I believe Holy Spirit will guide me through.

Aiya it’s a bit hard to explain here ler? Haha well, there's no right or wrong in Bible too. Free thinking and it’s about how you understand His word. It can be different dependent on different situations!!!

I often ask myself “so what’s the plan?” and came out with an answer “well, you don’t have a plan, do you?” hahaha see!! But from the question I asked I believed Lord hears me too. Have faith in Him and He will show me what’s next! But before this, I have tried hard too, because things won’t just come out without any action!!! =)))))

Well, I hope to find myself a job, don’t ever think I can be just a freeloader at home as I have everything I want too liaooooo! But Man!! Please ask yourself when you’re asking me questions!! How much do you know me? How much do you know my feelings? How much do you know I am stressed here? And how much do you know I am worried about my parents? Perhaps different people have their own different things to worry lohhhhh!! (Of course, IF you really know me then I don’t mind) hehe

Dad and Mom, they don’t really like me to work outside as they always told me it’s dangerous outside there and you will be very safe just at home. Haha I would laugh at them every time when they told me this as I really know they’re worried about me! But that doesn’t mean I agreed with them lah HAHAHAAHAHA I’m a naughty gal!!!

I promised my parents that I would try to settle down here IFFFFF IIIII CANNNNN. But definitely that won’t be the future I want HAHAHAHA! So until the end of this year if I still can’t manage to settle down myself here…HAHAHA you know I know lah!!! So it’s actually 5 more months to go!! Hmmmm I should appreciate this period of time too!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!

Wah~ seems like a lot of rubbish that I had vomited out here!!! nt gud nt gudd! haha! So people! Now you understand my situation liao horrrrrr? <.<

Oh yah!!! I feel so healthy recently when I am staying at home!! Didn’t get sick anymore lerRRR!!! perhaps mom really took care of me very well in every meallllllllS! Thanks Mom and I really love you!!!

K lah..stop here 1st, I will come back again!!! Buaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!! Miss ya!!!

Guitar

2010-06-27T14:31:00.004+08:00

Few days ago, I started my guitar lessons. Thank God that I actually found a very nice teacher to teach me day by day, little by little. I thank God for the free time given to me, to allow some practices to be done at home too.

Now my guitar skills are much better than before. Of course it’s better because I never had the chance to touch guitar when I actually wished for it when I was at KL.

For what I wish now is to make full use of my free time here and do something beneficial. Whatever it is, I’ll put all my heart in it and learn as much as I can. Go Clara =D

***this photo was taken by someone haha…thanks for the nice photo. I know I was fully concentrating on it hahahahaha XD

A funny thing to share through my brother and my brother’s friend this morning.

Charles (brother’s friend) : Have you been to church this morning?
ALvaris (My Bro) : Yes, I went to church last week.
Charles : Hello~ is one week 14 days for you?
ALvaris : HAHAHA

when they did their funny talks just in front of me during lunch. Suddenly I had this feeling of guiltiness inside my heart, because I didn’t attend church this morning and felt like God is sending his angel and asking Clara…is one week 14 days for you??? -_-'''

Oh welll….ending my story here….m going to have my nap now XD

This is my souvenir from Russia. Thanks Charles!

Friends, I’m sorry.

2010-05-23T19:50:00.004+08:00

Here, I want to say sorry to my Singapore’s Hope church friends, because I have to cancel my trip to Penang which I originally plan to go with them since I have to move on to the other plan that I made. So sorry to cancel my trip, I will keep you guys in prayers to have a safe trip and to have a blessed time in Penang. I miss you all.

Oops in just two month I wonder how many air tickets have I throw away? How much money had I wasted? I guess it’s about 4 or 5 tickets which cost me approximately RMXXX.XX XD Perhaps I am just too rich >.< ??? okay lah, I told myself no more next time, very painful to waste all those money Haha. This lesson tells us that don’t simply book ticket if you know you’re going to be packed in your schedules.

Oh well, updating myself a bit here. Recently what makes me happy is I can go back home to relax next month. And I’m going to stay there for a few months. Ya, few months because I don’t have any further plans about my working life. Perhaps I haven’t prepared my heart well to devote myself into it. But I hope I won’t fall into this kind of mood for too long, because it will make me feel lazy and I NEED MONEY TO SURVIVE XD, don’t want to get them from my parents too often. So CLaRa, you know what to do, it’s time for you to earn money for parents, hahaha..Sound easy huh?

Hmmm, I feel guilty recently because I haven’t been to church at all ever since I came back here. And also, it feels bad that I am starting to get used to my life without going to church. I even start to have many activities with my own friends when I’m supposed to go to church. Oops, So Clara, do you think Jesus won’t be disappointed? Get yourself and think properly. >.<

So, if you ask me what I’m doing during my free time since I am in big holiday now, I can only answer you that except going out for shopping, going out yamcha, lunch or dinner with frens and relatives, going out for sports, gym, jogging, badminton, swimming, haha de rest of my time I have spent is staying in this room, surfing net, watching DVD, youtube, ppstream, reading magazines, books, and eating lollipop.

Lol. This wasn’t my Bedroom in KL, it’s my “Entertainment” room and fully air coned, and it’s pretty messy. aiksss I miss home lah. This kind of life is really BORING!!!

Finally I just want to say that, there’s still a lot of activities waiting for me next month (in June). Have fun ya, CLaRa HEHE XD

Be right back……XD

One of my Entertainments

2010-05-19T19:20:00.005+08:00

<<我愛故我在>> 作者: 陶晶莹

Recently, I’m addicted to this book, the book which I wanted to read for a long time. Also, recently, I’m starting to like reading books. And so, I’ve felt that books have become an essential in our lives, or maybe books have become one of my Entertainments. =D

This book has been conveying a real story and some meaningful lessons which made me realise that love is something that’s mighty and weak. However, this book has given me huge encouragement, especially giving me a lot of different LOVE view-points.

2010 FIFA WORLD CUP

2010-05-12T22:25:00.005+08:00

Recently these football matches caught my eye and of course my friends are my big influencers and my eldest brother reminds me that World Cup is actually coming soon in our conversation in Facebook tonight. It will be held around June until July XD

If you ask me what is football? I can only answer you that I know it because of Michael Owen, David Beckham and Leonardo??? Hahaha, this is because my eldest sister only teaches me how to watch those handsome boys in football match ever since I was young and this is why I only support those teams they are in haha.

I actually hate FOOTBALL when I was young because my “big boss” at home always wastes his money on gambling and football matches is one of them. But I should thank God now because my big boss had stopped it since I was form 5 and I thank God that he gets to know Jesus. If not I guess I will swear to myself NOT TO WATCH FOOTBALL forever.

Oh well, I really think that time flies because the World Cup held every 4 years is coming soon once again. That means 4 years had gone. Ouchy…I just hope I don’t look old but will look beautiful forever hahahahahahahahahahaXD

Finally, I should give myself an update here. I noticed that recently, it’s getting boring in face book and msn...so everyone, if you don’t see me there and want to contact me just give me an email or text, because I won’t be able to go online every day. I will try my very best to reply you =) be right back.

May God bless you abundantly ♥ CLaRa ELeNa

11 May, 2010

2010-05-11T07:12:00.002+08:00

好久没回来这了...
或许是不知道该写些什么吧？
现在人还在PJ，一切安好，只是生活作息差了点。
这一两个月会有一些小小的旅程, 愿旅程平安也愿天父与我同在。

打了电话告诉妈妈下个月我会回家，她的反应我很是惊讶，说是很喜欢听到我说要“回家”
放下电话，自己却笑了起来，因为被误以原来自己是个不喜欢回家的小孩？
其实很想家，只是不喜欢表达出来，这就是我硬的地方哈哈。
总之这次想回家休息。

古人总爱说：休息是为了走更长远的路。如今我领悟到了。好累。
医治我，天父爸爸，不管在心灵或作息上，我无时无刻都需要您的医治。阿们。

Refreshed

2010-03-24T21:36:00.001+08:00

The things that is bothering me has finally been resolved. But there are still a lot of things that I need to push forward and I probably have no time to stop and rest. Soon… and very soon, I am going to have a new journey in my life. I don’t know what will happen next, but I’m trying my best to pray and seek for guidance from God. I believe He will lead me through these difficulties.

Tonight I went for gym. It’s a very nice and stress-releasing place to go to. So, after an hour of exercise, I feel refreshed.

Lord + Shepherd Kimberly

2010-03-17T22:08:00.003+08:00

Today I was supposed to go for X-Ray and blood test. There’s nothing much to worry. I was just going to check my own health. I am stressing up about this blood test because I’m scared of pain, especially when my mum is not beside me. I’m alone at the clinic.

Been praying hard to God, wishing at least someone can accompany or just stay beside me when I do all these checkups. Lord has answered my prayer and His angel actually spoke to me this morning and through our conversation, my blood test today has been very funny and I was talking to myself mentally =/

This is my conversation with her.
im.xinyuan: mmm okla den ...

go ahead with ur work baa

haf a blessed day ^^

may you haf personal encounter with God today ^^

8:43 AM miracles will happen!!

me: Amen..pls pray for me huh...later they need to takemy blood..oh gosh..i scare pain...without mummy de faint...

im.xinyuan: wun pain de laa... u just think of me.. den u wun scare liaw...

wahahahha~~~~

8:44 AM me: lol sure...

God bless ur day

buaiiiiii

love uuuuuuuu

hugzzzzz

im.xinyuan: love u too ... ^^

hugzzz**

She told me that the blood test is not as pain as I thought and asked me to only think about her so that I won’t feel pain.

So when I reached the clinic and when the doctor wanted to take my blood, the doctor said to me, “girl, won’t pain lah”, and I was like, “okay”, because this morning the angel told me that it’s not so painful. So at that moment, deep inside my heart and brain, all I thought about is “arghh Shepherd, you said won’t pain, you said won’t pain de…don’t lie to me” hahahaha =D

But suddenly, I heard a voice spoke to me. “Hey Clara, are you supposed to think only about your shepherd? What about me? I’m the one who has the power to heal your pain”. I was like, “Oh Nooooo~ Oh Lord, I’m wrong” and I quickly changed my mind and asked for the healing power from God. Sweattttttt’’’

Even though the blood test took a while, I was having a funny conversation with God and the scary thought has all ended.

Thanks Shepherd, because I remembered that you told me in the past not to rely too much on man but God. I have finally experienced it and Lord healed my pain. But still I miss you so much. Hopefully I can see you on July, your big day of the month =D

God bless you, Kim KimMMM =)

See the BIG Picture, Think BIG, Pray BIG and Rejoice BIG

2010-03-13T13:40:00.008+08:00

I miss home. I can say I’m no longer who I am already. I have changed in just two years. When I was young, I always tell my family member that I want to go out for a better future. I don’t want to just stay at my hometown, because my hometown is too small for me to grow.

Somehow with the question they asked, so how about your family? If you study and work outside, do you miss us? Or how about your doggies? I was like errrrmmm, mummy will help me took care of them and of course God will help me to take care of my family. I don’t have to worry about that. So this is what I thought last time.

I was regretted what I have thought after two years and when I think back, I admit that it was a normal thinking for just a little girl and now I grew up. I started to worry about how long I can survive outside without my family. I’m worrying about how long would I need to study and work outside. Do I have extra time to just be close with my family members? My thought from now on no longer is just my future but more on Family. I’m happy with what I thought, because I’m not belonged to those who are selfish to just think about themselves. Oops, do I judge anybody else? No, I didn’t mean it.

Perhaps, it’s too early to worry about all this things for just 22 years old girl right? Aiks, I just always lost my way when I think of my family, perhaps they’re too important for me. I THANK GOD that He gave me this opportunity to love and repent. It’s never too late for us to repent, for those young people, please do appreciate your family.

Nevertheless, I should pray and ask God more about this, hopefully I am able to handle my problem on this situation.

Let’s talk about what I have done today. Today I woke up very early due to my eye infection, I couldn’t say I’m so unfortunate because every month have to pay for medicine for all kind of disease that caused me unhealthy. Think positively, I am just too tired recently and my eye was infected due to the fatigue. In faith, I trust God will heal me and I pray that my next body check up will shows that I’m healthy in His hand.

Finally, today I also bought an umbrella for myself. Normally I won’t bother myself to take umbrella when I am out. Just it’s really too hot recently and the weather is uncontrollable. So it’s better for me to get an umbrella soon. RM30, quite expensive for me but with the advantage of UV Protection, I guess I am happy to get it out. Just it’s time to treat myself good if I can afford it.

Stop by here today, I’m so excited to attend Hope Service on tomorrow or every Sunday, it’s simply because when I come to church, I feel like I am closer to Him. Relaxxxxxxxxxxx =D

Today God told me to Love Him, Love Myself, Love My Family, Love My Friends, Love My Neighbors, and Love My Enemies.

From my own point of view:
Actually, once the Holy Spirit starts to transmit N impart His love into us, it will become much easier for us to be able to love others in the way God wants us to be able to love them. Love your God, love yourself N love other people in the way God intended. Amen.

Oh yes, A very nice N meaningfuL daY to me

2010-03-12T20:02:00.003+08:00

I should say I had done what I am supposed to do this week. I did it patiently, praying in my heart every minute when I’m doing them. I didn’t complain much, but I told Him that I trust Him, I trust that He will give me the best results or things to turn out the way that I want.

Fortunately, I received a result today, though I’m still unsure about it. But I know HE made me successful with HIS hands. Dear Lord, I pray that you will continue to be with me the next week, the following week and forever. I love you so much =D

I want to give my special thanks to a person whose name is Kimberly Wong, my Shepherd in my previous church. She supported me mentally, I appreciate all her blessings, story sharing, bible verses and advices through sms. Shepherd, as you know, His words really makes sense to me. I pray that our relationship will last forever with His guidance. I love you =) hugzzz

Secondly, I want to thank my mummy, my family, cousins and friends, because they always called me up and said some encouraging words. I am really touched in all the ways that you all took care of me. I thank God for all of this.

Well, through all of you, I promise myself to keep moving forward. There are still a lot of things waiting of me to discover and learn. Thankful to God and I pray that He will continue to grant me wisdom and strength to learn new things.

This is my breakfast+lunch+dinner today hahaha. I took away from outside. Hmmm honestly, it’s not delicious at all, but I thank God for the food and I am happy to have this dinner. I am just in a very good mood right now.

Stop here today. May God bless all of you abundantly =D

Sunday

2010-03-07T19:00:00.003+08:00

Today I woke up with my repenting heart, because I didn’t attend Sunday service. Woke up late and I know this is not a good reason for me and Father in Heaven.

As usual, after I finished my devotion in the morning, I cooked the breakfast and enjoy the food alone, and in my heart I am praying and thank to God deeply for the new day.

This is my brunch for today. Not delicious at all but I thank God for the Food.

Tang's family has been blessed by God! My nephew was born to this world this afternoon! so yes...we welcome you, my dear nephew =)

May God bless all of you abundantly =D

A new start N a new design for my blog in 2010

2010-02-28T22:31:00.005+08:00

Proverbs 3:5-6 "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge HIM and HE will make our paths straight".

28th Feb, 2010 CHAP GOR MEH @ Time’s up

2010-02-28T17:46:00.004+08:00

Today is 15th day of the Chinese New Year. Having for almost 15 days of holiday, I should really thank God for everything He had done for me. I really had a great time with family, relatives and Friends. I thank God that on the 14th days of Chinese New Year, I managed to skype with my Shepherd and updated our recent condition, had a nice conversation with her. I miss her very much and wish to talk by face to face, if I can =)

Am going to fly back to the place I supposed to be there on tomorrow and of course having a strong and mixed feeling. Hopefully I can manage to handle my mood well, perhaps it takes time.

I feel like I’m flying through airplane every month and everywhere. Airplane has become one of my main transports as it’s more convenient and JIMAT MASA but sometimes the ticket is just too expensive, perhaps to book earlier next time before you’re going to fly. Nevertheless, I thank God for MAS and AIR ASIA’s service, Hiak hiak hiak =D

Finally, after Char Gor Meh dinner, I should recheck my luggage packing as I just started my packing last night. There are really a lot of things and food for me to pack.

I will be very busy on the following three months. I pray everything would go smoothly in God’s hand. I had actually confirmed what my next venture is but I still need HIM to be with me every time and everywhere, because I have peace in my heart when HE is with me.

Have to stop at here. I promise that if I got extra time I will come here often and update my condition.

Last but not the least, I wish everyone a Happy and Blessed CHAP GOR MEH. May God bless all of you abundantly.

This is the key to access the Heaven’s door hahaha…just joking. Haven’t touched this key for almost a month. Am going to open this door very soon. May God bless me every time and everywhere.

Buaiiiiiiii buaiiiiiiiiiiiiii.

24.02.2010 Ah Mok =D

2010-02-24T21:22:00.007+08:00

He is one of my best friends in the world. Please don’t be misunderstood by this photo, because we’re not a couple.

I thank God for this friendship as God always send AngeL to me no matter where I am hehe. As a brother, He really takes care of me a lot in PJ, just because he has promised to my mommy hiak hiak hiak. A very GENTLE man =D

To end the point here, He is one of my targets for salvation in 2010. I never want to give up of him because he has rejected me all the way in 2009. Be patient la, CLARA =D

My dear Friend, as usual as I told you, God really loves you very much hehehe. Please do give me a chance to share Christ with you, okay? =)

23.02.2010 5C's Memories =)

2010-02-23T20:29:00.006+08:00

These two weeks I was busy to have gathering with old friends and relatives. Old friends like Secondary Classmates, Diploma course mates and Senior, overseas friends, cousin and etc. We took a lot of photos during gathering but I haven’t grabbed them from my friends there. So I would be uploading soon if I get them =)

Different groups, different gathering, different topics, different places and also different looks because everyone has changed.

Today will be my last two gathering in SIBU, and after finish it I will off to KUCHING tomorrow for few days then only I get back to my suffering Life =D. One more week for me to play around. Boohooo~

This afternoon I actually met with some of my secondary classmates. We have totally 5 years didn’t meet with each other except Jeremy and SHIE that we met few times in UCS.

Many things has changed. Some married, some still studying and some having their working life. I am really enjoyed to have this gathering =)

Thank God for all of you. Please do Keep Contact =) God bless.

Stop at here, have to prepare myself to go out lateR...FuuuyoHHH.

21.02.2010 Four in Love Gathering without Biky Chieng in the Sibu =)

2010-02-21T22:13:00.009+08:00

Tonight we had our 4 in Love Gathering but Biky is absent in this gathering as she didn’t come back for Chinese New YeaR =(

It’s almost two years we didn’t meet with each other except Shirley and I will still meet few times in PJ because we’re really busy on our things.

I still remember the last time we met was before we go out to PJ for study, and after two years, we met today as we almost complete our degree.

Tonight when we meet, we supposed to update each others’ status and can you guys imagine who is the noisiest in this gathering? hehehe~ Ya…you’re right. It’s Shirley Wong Ko Sing. Her mouth never stops laughing and talking until the last minutes I fetch her home. But still, I should be the one who is thankful to God for fetching her to home. Shirley I think you know the reason la. Haha =)

It’s a fruitful night to me again and I thank God for 4 IN LOVE gathering =D

She. Shirley wong ko sing. I’m very glad to see her spiritual growth in this one and half yeaR. Do continue to grow and shine for Jesus! May God bless all of you abundantly =)

17th Feb, 2010 It is stiLL a Long JourneY to FutuRe =)

2010-02-17T21:04:00.002+08:00

Dear CLaRa,

God doesn’t want you to GIVE UP. He gave you precious LIFE to make the best out of it and to LOVE it. It might not always be what you want or expect, but it depends on how you LOOK at it. GIVING UP is easy, fighting is WORTH every second.

There is something BIGGER out there for you, but you have to BE PATIENT and you have to keep on BELIEVING!

Amen =)

16th Feb, 2010 F + M

2010-02-16T23:58:00.003+08:00

Today is the third day of Chinese New Year. It is day 3 and I’m still having my non-stop visitation to my relative and Friend’s house. I can say this year I have so much improvement because years before, I never wanted to follow my family to this so called “BAI NIAN” but only friends’. hehehe~

I still remember that last time all my reasons to not follow my family are because Uncles and Aunties always ask their same questions and I have to answer them one by one. >.<

Anyway, back to the point, this year I have my so much changed. And because of this, my tummy is full of foods =)

Food’s price has increased in this CHINESE NEW YEAR. My family always look for KAMPUA every time and everywhere especially my dad and mom. Well, I guess I am the only one who hates to eat KAMPUA in Sarawak because KAMPUA is too oily for me.

This Chinese New Year I have tried a lot of KAMPUA with my parents. Every morning I woke up is not because of visitation but exciting about to eat the KAMPUA, as I found a nice KAMPUA in SIBU and I personally like the KAMPUA very much. Having KAMPUA for 3 days? I guess this year I got my KAMPUA BREAKTHROUGH. Boohooo~

Nevertheless, I actually ate a lot of other foods like western food in restaurant, many keropok and sweets during visitation and all are enough to cause me diarrhea at the night. Hahaha

Well well well Chinese New Year isn’t all about Foods? It’s graceful to have my stomach filled up with foods, isn’t it? Thank God =)

There is a lots of movies came out during this Chinese new year. Besides visiting friends and family, I guess our second entertainment is watch nice movie. Tonight, SIBU’S cinema is full of people to queue for buying tickets while they’re chitchatting and greet each other they recognized. Sweat***the cinema is full of people until we can actually have our sauna in Cinema, because it’s really TOO HOT la. >.<'''

But it’s worthy, because I met a lot of my old friends and we had our nice movie called “蘇乞兒” all I have my comment on this movie are the cinema is really full of people and the movie is so touchie and funny.

Stop at here, Clara wants to say Thank You to both brothers in law for sponsoring the expensive dinner and movie ticket tonight, because they not only sponsored me but also my brother and sisterssss hiak hiak hiak. I’m glad to have more and more family members because I would have more angpau grabbed from them hiak hiak hiak.

Thank You Lord, May God bless all of you abundantly.

Happy Chinese New Year.

15th Feb, 2010 ANG PAU

2010-02-15T17:33:00.001+08:00

Today is second day of the Chinese New Year and I’m still enjoying my time to visit Friends and Relatives around. (Actually I hate this so called “Bai Nian”)

I always listen from peoples around me saying that, ‘hey Clara, remember to take more ANG PAU this year’ than ‘hey Clara, Happy Chinese New Year’ and because of this I started to wonder that people celebrates Chinese New Year is only because they can take ANGPAU??

No wonder I heard that if you’re married, you better stay at home because you have no more ANGPAU from others and you’re the one who’s supposed to give ANGPAU. Boohooo…what a funny Joke right?

Sometimes I even heard others saying that if you plan to have babies after marriage, please "produce" them as much as you can, because if you can’t get ANGPAU from others, your baby can grab for you. Lolxxxxx…Fuyoooh. I found out that, Human’s thinking is more and more interesting and funnier nowadays.

Well well well, for me I’m enjoying to observe friends and family during the visitation but not ANGPAU, because I have received too much ANGPAU from my family and siblings. However, I won’t reject to have ANGPAU from others too, because I will look all these ANGPAUs as blessings from God. God is so good =)

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR and ANGPAU NA LAI,HIAK HIAK HIAK.

God Bless =)

New Year Eve 2010

2010-02-14T02:09:00.000+08:00

I can say every year we have the same way to celebrate New Year eve. Mommy will cook a lot of dishes and as her daughter, of course I have to be her kitchen Assistant. (But normally I won’t be the one in Kitchen, one reason, because my mommy has four daughters and I’m the youngest one hehehe).

But there are some changes in this 2010. My eldest sis and third sis are just married years before. That means my mommy has totally lost two good and hardworking kitchen assistant compared to one lazy Clara. But where is the second sis this year? Because she needs to accompany her fiance, so to end the point here, this year my mommy’s kitchen assistant got me only, her youngest daughter, CLARA TANG. Quite a tired job for me, but still I have to say sorry to mommy because doesn’t help her lot, due to I don’t have much experience in kitchen. Not to complaint here, I just have to gain more and more cooking experience this year.

Finally, this year I have totally changed. I don’t wait for 12am to text and greet friends and relatives, I don’t forward SMS, I’m not surfing internet but just doing what I like, accompany parents, doggies, family and be what I want to be. I feel so good to the way I changed.
Have to stop here…guys, see you soon.

Happy Chinese New year to all of you. May your New Year be fulfilled with abundant blessings and have a prosperous new year. God bless.

Hope It won't be too late to make My ResolutioN for Twenty TeN

2010-01-27T07:30:00.003+08:00

A lot of things have happened in the past years that have brought me happy, down, made things more difficult N etc. Sometimes everything feels so hopeless and I want to give up, either on what I'm trying to do or on Life in generaL.

But lately, I've been feeling very optimistic. I want to be able to hold on to this feeling N start really enjoying Life N PROGRESS. There is so much that I need to do to get my life on track.

Obviously it won't be EASY, but I need to make PROGRESS so as my resolution, I chose PROGRESS...I want to keep in mind if things ever start looking grim again N while things are pleasant to remind me to keep moving forward.

Twenty TeN : LivinG a Simple Life

ALoHa~

2009-12-14T17:17:00.000+08:00

Hi everybody, How are you recently?

I’m fine here. Finished with my busy things around, what’s next now?

Am going to have my trip out of Malaysia soon but seems still unable to be online so easily, though my phone and laptop is with me. I’m just too lazy to access the internet line around and it’s time for me to get out of this internet world after I spent so many days on internet to do some online research….ouchie…it’s time to RELAX.

Haven’t been so excited about this coming trip, because there is still a mission to complete when I get to one of the place and I’m expecting something from God this time and I still would be praying hard. He knows what the best for me and I will obey and follow what He had planned for me =)

Well, it’s really the time to enjoy my Christmas and Countdown Holiday soon.

Dear Friends and Family, I know it’s still early to give wish to everyone but I think I will only return to here after New Year 2010.

I’m here to wish you all have a Blessed Christmas and Happy New Year 2010. May God bless you all abundantly =)

AnnouncemenT

2009-12-02T21:52:00.001+08:00

Dear Friends, sorry that I will unable to onLine recently...something BiggeR is going on soon =D hiak hiak hiak…would be away from Facebook, Msn N Gtalk for sometimes, caLL me or sms me If you want to Look for me...Have a Blessed daY =)

30th November, 2009 Happy Wedding Day - Part Two

2009-12-02T21:46:00.000+08:00

ALoHa =)

Sorry because I have been busy around recently and I’m late to update the Part Two…

There are really too much photos on my eldest brother’s wedding ceremony, and due to tired mood, I just compile some photos and make them into a movie, so it would be easy for you guys to enjoy =)

Dear Brother and Sister in Law, this movie is specially made for both of you =) please enjoy the movie and God bless you all, have a bright and blessed Journey together in future! :-D

30th November, 2009 Happy Wedding Day - Part 1

2009-11-30T03:30:00.005+08:00

现在是凌晨三点钟, 郑萍萍没有得好睡. 哈哈哈 (改篇张智成的”凌晨三点钟”)

我这次真的破记录了, 因为我两天没睡觉了, 真的都没睡到, 希望明天我的妆可以把我的熊猫眼遮得”美美”的…哈哈哈, 一个二十二岁的小妹妹, 半夜不要睡觉, 却在这留下日记 =)

昨晚, 家里来了好多亲戚, 爸爸和大哥为了要搞热家里气氛, 特邀亲戚到家来吃晚餐, 顿时我家也成了暂时的餐馆了, 因为餐馆来了许多美味的佳肴 =)

虽然结婚是大喜事, 但真的好累哦…都不是我自己结婚都累到这样, 那如果是我的结婚典礼? 那又会是如何呢? 啊哈哈哈哈哈哈, 老实说, 那应该还是很久的事, 想那么多干嘛? 哈哈哈..

十一月和十二月真的好多人结婚哦, 是真的很多…多到我现在看到酒楼的菜肴都有点反胃-_-好像没有礼貌的说哈哈…给我大老板(老爸) 听到我就惨了…^_^

大哥和二姐早上四点就出门打扮去了, 因为等等要走教堂, 所以就得早出门准备…而伴郎和司机穿着大西装在凌晨两点半就登门拜访吃寿面了, 家里好热闹. 但那么早的伴郎和司机,我还是第一次见 =)

爸爸今早的西装是我帮他准备的, 帮他打完领带, 穿上白衬衫和西装外套后, 他突然问了我一句, 爸爸帅吗? 我突然大笑起来了, 因为最近不知道为什么, 我老爸老是问老妈和姐姐们, 问是你们的爸爸帅吗? 做女儿的我们说了, 爸爸你真的很帅, 出自我们真心的回答 =) 哈哈

我跟天父爸爸祷告着, 今天大哥的婚礼有天父爸爸的带领, 将会有满满的祝福. 我爱你, 天父爸爸=)

Have a blessed day =) 30th November, 2009.

I FeeL blessed, Happy Birthday to me !

2009-11-26T22:52:00.001+08:00

26th Nov, 2009
Location: Sibu, Sarawak, Malaysia.

It’s been almost 4 years that I didn’t celebrate my own birthday with my Family. It’s not because I don’t want to celebrate with my Lovely Family, but I’m always away from home on my birthday. However, I thank God that since my first birthday year until now, my family always celebrate together with me and if I’m away from home, they will also send their best greeting to me. Thank God for giving me a lovely family =) and Thank God for the HolidaY too…Lol.

I feel so blessed this year, because I never thought that I can celebrate with my family. As I thought, we are really hard to gather especially after we grew up. It’s because some of them need to take care of their family, business, work and even study and I’m so touched that we can gather finally on my birthday, although they actually came back for eldest brother’s marriage ceremony on 30th Nov, nonetheless, thank you brother for making your big day near to my birthday hahahahahaha…

Time flies, Tang’s family became so big just after 4 years? There are Baba, Mama, Eldest brother and Sister in law, Eldest Sister and Brother in law, Second Sister and Brother in law, Third Sister, Brother in law and their baby boy in sister’s tummy, youngest little brother and me =) wao…I can’t imagine the scene after 5 more years….how would it be? hehehe =p

Today is my birthday, but that is not why I am writing this blog. I still remember my Shepherd taught me to be less on ourselves but more on Him and I am writing this to give thanks to Jesus Christ for sacrificing His life for us and allowing me to be here for this long time and able to continue to smile and find love in my heart to reach out to others. I give praise to God and I am not ashamed to do this.

One of the first birthday wishes I received is came from FaceBook two days ago and I said to myself....this is another good reason for the social networks =) there are people there that care! Thank you very much and God’s blessings is with you =)

There are so many things going on in the world nowadays that it is sometimes a challenge to find the good, but what I try to remember when it’s hard to find the good is remember that I wake up this morning, that I have my health and strength remained, and a beautiful family and yes! I can have a smile. And this all makes me remember "God is Good" and what should you say? “All the times” Amen =)

In Matthew 7:7 that I meditated, Talk and Pray to God, I believe that when a door is closed, God will open a new door for you when you ask, seek and find =) Let the closed door goes and look for the new door that is already opened for you.

26th Nov 2009, Thursday has been an awesome night for me. Once a year that’s a special day rolls around. It was not the first time I celebrate my birthday with my family, but I still feel so fresh and blessed to have all of you together with me in this special day =) Glory to God, Amen.

Nevertheless, I really thank God for all my friends…God is so good, He always bless me with friends around me. I never feel lonely after I accepted Christ. And What is a birthday without friends, right? haha...

Dear my beloved friends, thank you for planning a dinner for me, What a nice surprise. I feel glad to have all of you with me, thank you for all presents and cards, thank you for sweet greetings in sms, thank you for sweet birthday blessings in FaceBook and even MSN. thank you to my Shepherd Kim Kim, UL Soe kian, and Sis Elaine for making a call and singing birthday song to me...very touched =) I appreciate all you have done that makes me feel so blessed in Christ =)

Last but not the least, I want to give thanks specially to a person here, who is my beloved Mummy, I love the Red Wine Chicken soup that you cooked for all of us and the BIG Blueberry Cake that you made for me. Mummy, I Love you forever. May God bless you and daddy abundantly with good health, good business and wonderful Life.

Today is not only my birthday, but also the big day of Hope Church International (HIM). Brothers and Sisters in Christ, I pray that all of you have a blessed time in MNC, granted wisdom by God. Please open your Eyes and Heart and let God speaks “gao gao” with all of you =) although I can’t make it for this year, but I promised that I will go to MNC on next several years around 2010 =)

God bless and Happy Birthday to me! (Smile)

More of Him, Less of me,
CLaRa 26th Nov, 2009

*sorry for not managed to take a lot of photo*

Jesus Christ is the same Yesterday and Today and ForeveR

2009-11-24T04:29:00.003+08:00

In Jesus, we can hav peace. No matteR wht trials you are going througH, you can hav peace buT you need to keep ur focus on Jesus. TrusT Him to hear N answer ur prayers in His time N in His way.

Perhaps de miracLe is waiTing for us some Time in de Future…perhaps He has a different Purpose in all of This. I only know I must TrusT in Him, because withouT Him nothing makes sense. He is my Hope, my Joy and my Peace =)

Hebrews 13:8 “Jesus Christ is the same Yesterday and Today and ForeveR” =)

Have a blessed day and remember to pray aLways =)

Matthew 26:39 “Going a little farther, he fell with his face to the ground and prayed, "My Father, if it is possible, may this cup be taken from me. Yet not as I will, but as you will."

In His Love,
CLaRa 24.11.09
4:43am

Today?

2009-11-20T14:29:00.002+08:00

How are your spiriTs foR Today?

Hehehe~

My mood is very Good Today =)

No reaL ReasoN, jusT Happy with Life (=

十月

2009-10-31T23:48:00.003+08:00

又好一阵子没上来了, 因为今天是2009年十月的最后一天, 就上来看看能为自己留下什么(:

就这样很快的又过了两个月, 最近的我过得蛮充实的, 没什么特别事发生, 但是忙了点...我感谢天父爸爸一直与我同在.

最近突然担心以前从不担心的东西? 就是"时间"...正所谓一寸光阴一寸金, 寸金难买寸光阴, 以前从不欣赏这句话, 但最近终于明白其意义, 迟了些?

以前总是希望时间能快点过, 快点把书读完, 然后就可以出社会工作, 但现在却发觉, 当你慢慢得到自己所要的东西后, 付出的代价就是自己的光阴. 再说明显点, 就是岁月不留人(: 突然好想唱一首歌, 时间时间等等我, 我有话要说, 我有话要说......

十一月即将来临, 一个对我来说是可喜可悲的一个月, 但也是我一年里最喜欢的一个月, 因为十一月就是妈妈把我带来世上的一个月^^谢谢爸爸妈妈的养育之恩, 谢谢天父爸爸无时无刻都与我同在(:

十一月有个超级大的任务要完成, 希望能成功, 不然就人头落地? 啊~也没那么严重啦哈哈哈...愿自己会成功.

好啦, 小女子就此停笔, 余言后叙...跳!

释怀2009.10.31

Psalm 23

2009-10-07T07:06:00.004+08:00

Try saying it slowly...

"The Lord is my Shepherd; I shall not want."

Again,

"The Lord is my Shepherd; I shall not want."

Again,

"The Lord is my Shepherd; I shall not want."

Shhhhhhhhhh......

Did you hear something?

I think I did (:

but I'm not sure :)

Amen...

God Bless 7 October, 2009

TRAVELING LIGHT
THE GREAT HOUSE OF GOD
CHAPTER 4 The Prison of Want

MAX LUCADO

PasT, PresenT N FuTuRe

2009-10-05T00:07:00.002+08:00

Leav3 d3 PasT iN d3 PasT,

d3 FuTuRe In d3 FuTuRe,

N EnJoY de PresenT of Th3 PresenT…

God has His plaN foR us…

Be PatieNt N TrusT iN Him Who knowS our FutuRe…

I wiLL be RighT her3, waiting FoR you…

Don’t Worry…

Proverbs 3:5-6
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;

In all your ways acknowledge Him

And He will make your paths straight".

God Bless

66dayS

2009-10-04T10:37:00.002+08:00

FighT FoR 66dayS from Now...

FinisH It...

N you wiLL se3 thE ResulT tHat you had FighT foR...

God BLesS.

有感而发

2009-10-03T22:50:00.004+08:00

好一阵子没上来了...

因为都在忙些零零碎碎的东西...

熬夜的习惯慢慢改了

饮食习惯变好了

很喜欢最近的生活，很踏实很安宁. 充实得可爱...

原来简单的生活也可以很幸福...

中秋节快乐.

I like BEING BUSY+Roommate and I

2009-07-30T15:15:00.003+08:00

I like BEING BUSY...

It had been awhile that I haven’t update my blog. What else can I say, I’m busy alright..
But, isn’t it holiday? What’s there to be busy about?

There are many things surrounding me and a lot of these things and decisions need to be solved by me such as; events, study, family, my lovely Father Lord and etc…

Though I am feeling kind of tired, still I told myself that if only I could see the result, it’ll be worth all the trouble....

Eventually, I’ll be going to Metakab with my roommate and will be staying there for 3 days. Hopefully I’ll be able to accompany her more for the while because recently I’ve not been approaching her in fact I was always being or focus with another sister...

Anyway, what I could say is that both of you are my dearest sisters in Christ. (LoLxx, last night I just asked her that, “I felt that, seems like you don’t SAYANG me that much recently, en’t yea? hahaha)

I enjoyed listening to her Bible story just before every of my bed time….

Whenever I’m in a bad mood, she’ll always tell me that, “the moral of the story in bible which I would like to tell you…lalalala hahahaha but always rejected by me..because I’m in bad mood…haha

She also always took me to church or around and let me know a lot of brothers and sisters in Christ…especially Pastor Willie..lolxxx SHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH…

She also let me help her with ease...

She will get jealous too…arhahahahha…right? Soe Kian? hahaha

She will also share with me about her side of personal matters, and etc…

I really appreciate being with her and you are one in whole of my 22 years worth living of life whom really Amor me as a roommate...

Te Amo…(in Latin which means I love you as in Te “you” Amo “I love”) haha
(Remembered that I told you I’ll sing to you “My Most Beloved One” on your wedding day last night?? LoLxx. Can’t wait for that day to come…lolxxxx)

Seems to be out of topic for the moment. LoLxxxx-_-...That’s all folks…

1st time we met and really knew each other

Love you in Chirst,

Roommate@CLaRa

A day Trip at Cameron Highland

2009-07-15T15:17:00.007+08:00

One of my church leader had me reminded myself that it had been quite sometime that I din update my blog in blogspot le…

Recently I’m doing good, not as tired as before but I should really say, God is giving me a lot of challenges, but I LIKE IT..because of this, I really feel that I, myself had really grown a lots tru this one year in Hope church…

Now is outreach season…I’m learning to take care of new visitor and praying for them all the way, because I really used to let my Shepherd or Leaders take care of me so it’s quite a big challenge for me now..i feel tht it is my turn to learn how to take care of ppl and bring ppl to church and not to think of giving up and give many reason to myself saying tht I dunno how to care of ppl…ya Lord, let me be strong and courageous..do not be terrified, do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever I go..

Oh well, I actually have a fruitful weekend last week…me and all my leaders went to cameron highland for meeting…but I’m de one who in charge to help them to take photo…enjoyed taking photos up there and enjoyed de fruits up there as well…especially knowing how leaders work together as a team^^...thank God for giving me this opportunity to learn from them...

Here are de photos that I took at cameron highland…because there are a lot of photos so I won’t upload them all here…enjoy to view my photos ya^^

Thank God for de trip at C.H… I’m happy tht I can be with you guys all de time..appreciate it…I’m going to leave PJ for nine months for educational purposes…dunno wht will happen within this nine months after I leave..but it’s certain tht I will miss you guys..time really flies..as time draws closer it feels more and more harder to part with all of you..but I will always keep my brothers and sisters in christ with my prayer no matter where I am..

Update myself until here…to be continued…^^

1 John 1:9

2009-07-02T13:01:00.002+08:00

1John 1:9

"If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness."

Do you ever think about why the Lord had to die on the Cross?

I do, and every time I do, I remember it was for Me, O Lord...

That it was because of my sin and the things in my life I have either done or not done that have hurt God and my fellow man.

It is a truly humbling thought to know that He went through all that suffering just for me..

And I am constantly asking for His forgiveness for all the pain and suffering He had to bear.

Forgive M3, O Lord

Monday, 29 June 2009 どもありがとうございます

2009-06-29T12:58:00.003+08:00

Day before yesterday my left eye got infected by bacteria and was swollen...don’t know why it happened so suddenly too-_- because I thought I’m just too tired, thought there’s nothing...

However, my eyes just became red and swollen. I felt pain, tears kept running down my cheeks..
Yesterday morning, after waking up, I still felt that pain in my eyes. After the devotion with Sharon, I followed uncle and auntie to town.

This time God sent me Uncle and Aunty to take me to see a doctor and their daughter had accompanied me and I felt touched…

Uncle and aunty brought me and Sharon for breakfast after the checkup. Before breakfast, we went for a stroll in town. We bought veges and breads…

When I came back, I took my med and went to sleep..

When I woke up, I saw uncle is preparing dinner, While waiting, I saw DC and Wei Qi playing guitar, then I accompanied them to sing Christian song..

Yesterday, aunty made me happy because every sentences she spoke will end with a smile..as for me, I smiled and smiled too until that the pain in my eye was gone…ahahaha…

The dinner was awesome…with an addition of Sharon’s maths teacher, Kerry, was also a funny guy which could only speak English… (A Chinese man which only speaks English and do not know Chinese, we call them banana hahahaha) During dinner time, there was uncle, aunty, DC, Wei Qi, Sharon, Kerry and me… with all of us the surrounding were much more merrier and the food tasted much more better..

After dinner, there were Sharon’s refreshments

This morning, Sharon went to school..
Aunty asked me for breakfast…

Aunty also asked me to take out their pet dog, Midnight…to poo/shit…haha

Uncle and aunty took me to the KL Sentral LRT station..
Now… I’m back!
Thank God that giving me these two days … I appreciated it and thanks to uncle and aunty, Sharon and DC to let me have the feeling of being at home…でわ,どもありがとうございます!

It's just a key.. but so much to wait...

2009-06-22T16:30:00.000+08:00

Even though its just a sentence, it had me a lot to think about. It’s just a key, but so much to wait. What if its just a small matter, which I myself is unable to solve?

Again and again, asking myself, am I running away from this?

Last night, I shared few of my personal troubles with my roommate. However, I was unable to completely share what’s troubleling me which I had no guts to share it yet…?

I hate myself where everytime I’m able to BINGO each every next action others will do, each every next thoughts others will think about, because of this, everytime i really had a hard time to share my personal things because i actually know what they will advice what they will say and purpose for what i share again? there are many times that i rather choose to share with my doll or dogs because only both of them are the ones that i can't predict at all..sounds funny? but i'm serious...This had troubled me a lot. I may say this is a gift from God, which I am able to make use of this gift without letting me in pain…Isn't it God?

Most of my closest friends thought that we are in the same pack. We were able to have the same thoughts and same actions, but they never know that I am actually able to BINGO their actions and this is quite a pain for me. It feels scary right?

God, I believe those that You’ve told me, You had already told me. I had tried to share those three matters to my leaders, and all left for me whether I could give it all in to you. I pray deep in my heart…

I really do care on my 2nd and 3rd matters. I believe that everything is taken care by You. The key is in Your hands, will you unlock my door to brightness or will be ever closed up in this chamber. I really have no idea with this...

I chose to believe in You. I would never doubt the key which You are holding to it. Let it be that everything is taken care by You, oh Lord...

Proverbs 3:5-6

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight".

Step 1
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart.”This is the key to our relationship with God-to trust in Him with all of our hearts. We know from the New Testament that this can only be accomplished through faith in His Son.

Step 2
“Lean not on your own understanding”Once we know we are trusting God, we must be conscious not to trust on or in anything else including our own understanding and wisdom. When we do trust in these other things we tend to misinterpret the messages that God is giving us. This makes it easy for us to be deceived into thinking that God is leading us in a direction where we want to go when he is in fact not.

Step 3
“In all your ways acknowledge him”Always give credit to God and not take any yourself. Remember, everything good comes from above. As things go right in your life, give credit to the one who deserves it. Even the air that we breathe is His. As He opens doors and blesses us, we must be sure to give Him the glory.

Step 4
“He will make your paths straight.”Once we have been trusting God, not relying on ourselves, and continually acknowledging Him we will see clearly the way in which He wants us to go. He will direct our paths and help us to go in the right direction.

Step 5
Know that God has Plans for You. This is a continual process because God has great plans for us.

I hope all the things that I know will never be repeated once more and put all my trust into Him..

God Bless!

Amen!

Business Confidential Vs KS

2009-06-11T11:01:00.000+08:00

Business Confidential...HaHaHa recently really tired because I have unfinished work...today i finished it but tomorrow will have new one again...everyday is challenging...I took my work back to do today because I scare I can't manage to finish it on Time>.<...I should say Today's work must done by Today...don't wan to break my own Record HaHa...actually I'm also very KS Hahaha...KS = Kia Shu lolxxxx

2009-06-11T01:08:00.000+08:00

The CG PJC1 celebrated our CL'S birthday together...Happy Birthday to you, CL^^ God bless^^

Sunday 7, June 2009

2009-06-07T20:56:00.006+08:00

Wow, time really flies. In another 94 days I’ll be going back. However, after 9 months I’ll be coming back to West Malaysia for work again. This was what I had planned now, and as for now I have no plans of changing it but who knows in this 9 months time, I’ll have a different plan again? Haha God will be arranging it for me…

In this week, there isn’t much pressure because I no longer that busy for my job anymore. I think it’s about time to prepare myself to return to my student’s life. Time to continue to work hard… please cheer me on for this 9 months of duration, especially in getting used to the new environment.

From this point onwards, I’ll be sharing some things that I’ve experienced. Recently, I’ve been feeling quite tired, probably because I’m lacking physical strength? Or maybe I’ve been eating too much? Haha I think it’s probably because I sleep late in the night, not sure why do I have this sort of feeling… Although I feel tired, I feel like sleeping is a waste of time. I’ve been scared that I would have missed out stuff, especially events. I’m being greedy…

The bad thing is…actually I’m okay last night..but because a sudden sms...because of those words..because of misunderstanding...i cried last midnight…but thank God that this morning my eyes didn’t swell all from the cry from last midnight… thank God… I pray that my heart will always be able to calm. Praying you and I…

The student service finally started yesterday… This is my first time serving at the Communion team. It’s refreshing, and I thank God for leading me...Regarding the service… it looks as if I’m not in condition... I hope I’ll be able to catch up ^^

This morning all of us went to TTDI for jogging and fellowship together.... It was a good experience for me… There is happy experience… Angry… Funny... sections for question and answer.. and I found that if a CG has no leaders, all team will seem as if there aren’t any leaders, and therefore the teams will be viewed as a weak team... so I know that leaders are actually very important to us.. thank God I’ve finally chose to attend this morning and get lots of fun and experience…

Lastly, I’ll like to thank our organiser… thank you for your efforts…

This is our group photo…

wow^^

SHARALENE^^

PJC1

This is College’s group photo…

That’s all for today… Hope that the new week will be great!

My eldest Sister

2009-06-02T23:09:00.005+08:00

My eldest sister was married on march, but I haven't seen the pictures till now...it's a shame that i didn't attend my eldest sister's wedding...felt regret since my eldest sister is the one who concerns me the most, because when I was young my parents were always busy, but my eldest sister took care of me very, very much....Thank you Sis...Happy belated wedding...Hope to see you soon^^

Saturday, May 30, 2009

2009-05-30T21:10:00.005+08:00

Finally, school holiday had arrived. However, I don’t feel happy about it. I might be happy since my daily life would be much more quiet HAHAHA, however, my part time job's time duration will be shortened due to the holiday...lolxxx

My colleagues had quit her job. Having to know her for about two months, I find that she’s a cute and simple girl. Besides that, she’s helpful and thought me various things on how to attend parents. I had learnt a lot from her. Though I’m a very playful colleague, she’d still be glad to entertain me. Since she’s no longer working alongside with me, I felt a loss of a wonderful partner like her to fool around in the office....lolxx again...

Oh well, when I woke up this morning, I received a message from ‘S’, after reading the message, I was shocked as what ‘S’ had wrote in the message which I do not really understand lolxxx. At my condition which I’m partially awake and which partially understanding in ‘S’ message, I fell asleep again… zzzZZZzzz q(~(00)~)p..lolxxxx

After fully awake at 9 o’clock, reading back the same message, then I realized what ‘S’ message means. Though there’s some “un-delightful” meaning in the message??? maybe I think too much or so...WATEVER...

Well, my unhappy feeling stops here and not going to think more about it. Let it be natural… feels like I’m trying to escape from this situation??? But, I guess everything is all planed by God. I guess I don’t need to worry too much and live my life happily…^^

In a blink of light, tomorrow is Sunday and I have to go back…

Sorting out my feelings and being ready to go back home!!!

SHE’s
The one I respect...
The one I learn from...
The one that I know what I’m doing...
The one I felt annoyed sometime but her advice is for my own good...
The one that I felt that someone who really cares for me...
The one that let me know more about God...
The one that reminds me God is always with me...
The one that reminds me to do my prayers...
The one that I thought whom I do not really understand...
The one that let me clearly know myself...
and much more...
She Oh she

LOLxxx

Friday 29.05.09

2009-05-29T22:19:00.002+08:00

I had arrived and somehow I felt relief. Maybe is due to that I met up with own family members. Furthermore, it’s HOLIDAY!!! So, I bet these 2 weeks I’ll have a peaceful life? Lolxxxx…

Currently I’m on Facebook looking through the memorable photos. I felt that the present me can’t compete with the happiness of my past. Looking at myself in the old photo, I smiled stupidly in front of my computer…haha

Here goes a few of my old photos...

Daddy and Mummy^^

This is my favorite, Genting’s Space Shooter...

2008’s happy ending...Retired from the responsibility of UCS Student Council...

Might be able to be a model in the future hor?? but have to slim down for the moment, having too much food making me more plump...Lolxxxxx

2007 Trip to KuChing

2008 Trip to Genting

S.H.E HAHAHA

I recalled this is when we just arrive from Kuching to Sibu^^

Having a BBQ party at the campus canteen/cafeteria

first time i drive the toyota camry^^..

Rui Yue and I

My BEST frens during my diploma studies

Diploma's Graduation^^

KOMAG

AHMO From Melbourne..Lolxxx...handsome ler? hahaha

Liang Liang^^

Eventually, flashing back to the past I managed to find myself...
Well, that’s all for now. Feeling tired at the moment and can’t wait for tomorrow’s consecutive events. Finally, wishing myself HAPPY WEEK END! Lolxxxx^^

Just too Tired

2009-05-28T20:54:00.002+08:00

I’m not psychologically tired, but it’s something that I don’t understand, something that is hard to understand.
I can’t find anyone whom I can speak to...

And I don't even know how to share it with You, O Lord...
Finished typing my message but I did not send it out…

I’ve thought and thought about it and accidentally fell asleep...
There’s a lot of bad intentions...
Dislike Human, because they’ve been fake...
Dislike myself, because I am unable to conceal my unhappiness, and due to this reason, I’ve made people worried…
But are they really worried?
I’m starting to lose my trust in people
I think I am really mistaken…
Mistaken…
Miserably mistaken…
Lord…you're becoming further and further away from me…
I have no more will to pray anymore…

tired~huuuuu~

CLaRa tells herself to reminisce her past when the time allows...

2009-05-22T23:17:00.003+08:00

Do I have to go back through time?
Just when I woke up, I thought it was 7a.m. next morning…
I wondered why is the time flying like this? I felt like my breathe halted for a bit…
I’ve been suffering these few days…
You and I
I’m starting to become confused…
It’s filled with uncertainty what awaits me…
At this moment, I’m hoping that, you will be with me, walking on the same path…
Just like how we made our promise…
But it feels like the promise is broken…
I’m sorry about that…
Messages can’t really give me anything…
I finally understood how miserable this feeling is…
This is once again a time when I’m waiting for MY OWN ANSWER…
What do I really want?
What will be the best for me?
God, what is your plan?
He…has been on my mind…

CLaRa TanG...

Din you realise that...
It’s almost A Year…