Monday, 29 June 2009 どもありがとうございます

Day before yesterday my left eye got infected by bacteria and was swollen...don’t know why it happened so suddenly too-_- because I thought I’m just too tired, thought there’s nothing...

However, my eyes just became red and swollen. I felt pain, tears kept running down my cheeks..
Yesterday morning, after waking up, I still felt that pain in my eyes. After the devotion with Sharon, I followed uncle and auntie to town.

This time God sent me Uncle and Aunty to take me to see a doctor and their daughter had accompanied me and I felt touched…

Uncle and aunty brought me and Sharon for breakfast after the checkup. Before breakfast, we went for a stroll in town. We bought veges and breads…

When I came back, I took my med and went to sleep..

When I woke up, I saw uncle is preparing dinner, While waiting, I saw DC and Wei Qi playing guitar, then I accompanied them to sing Christian song..

Yesterday, aunty made me happy because every sentences she spoke will end with a smile..as for me, I smiled and smiled too until that the pain in my eye was gone…ahahaha…

The dinner was awesome…with an addition of Sharon’s maths teacher, Kerry, was also a funny guy which could only speak English… (A Chinese man which only speaks English and do not know Chinese, we call them banana hahahaha) During dinner time, there was uncle, aunty, DC, Wei Qi, Sharon, Kerry and me… with all of us the surrounding were much more merrier and the food tasted much more better..

After dinner, there were Sharon’s refreshments

This morning, Sharon went to school..
Aunty asked me for breakfast…

Aunty also asked me to take out their pet dog, Midnight…to poo/shit…haha

Uncle and aunty took me to the KL Sentral LRT station..
Now… I’m back!
Thank God that giving me these two days … I appreciated it and thanks to uncle and aunty, Sharon and DC to let me have the feeling of being at home…でわ,どもありがとうございます!

It's just a key.. but so much to wait...

Even though its just a sentence, it had me a lot to think about. It’s just a key, but so much to wait. What if its just a small matter, which I myself is unable to solve?

Again and again, asking myself, am I running away from this?

Last night, I shared few of my personal troubles with my roommate. However, I was unable to completely share what’s troubleling me which I had no guts to share it yet…?

I hate myself where everytime I’m able to BINGO each every next action others will do, each every next thoughts others will think about, because of this, everytime i really had a hard time to share my personal things because i actually know what they will advice what they will say and purpose for what i share again? there are many times that i rather choose to share with my doll or dogs because only both of them are the ones that i can't predict at all..sounds funny? but i'm serious...This had troubled me a lot. I may say this is a gift from God, which I am able to make use of this gift without letting me in pain…Isn't it God?

Most of my closest friends thought that we are in the same pack. We were able to have the same thoughts and same actions, but they never know that I am actually able to BINGO their actions and this is quite a pain for me. It feels scary right?

God, I believe those that You’ve told me, You had already told me. I had tried to share those three matters to my leaders, and all left for me whether I could give it all in to you. I pray deep in my heart…

I really do care on my 2nd and 3rd matters. I believe that everything is taken care by You. The key is in Your hands, will you unlock my door to brightness or will be ever closed up in this chamber. I really have no idea with this...

I chose to believe in You. I would never doubt the key which You are holding to it. Let it be that everything is taken care by You, oh Lord...

Proverbs 3:5-6

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight".

Step 1
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart.”This is the key to our relationship with God-to trust in Him with all of our hearts. We know from the New Testament that this can only be accomplished through faith in His Son.

Step 2
“Lean not on your own understanding”Once we know we are trusting God, we must be conscious not to trust on or in anything else including our own understanding and wisdom. When we do trust in these other things we tend to misinterpret the messages that God is giving us. This makes it easy for us to be deceived into thinking that God is leading us in a direction where we want to go when he is in fact not.

Step 3
“In all your ways acknowledge him”Always give credit to God and not take any yourself. Remember, everything good comes from above. As things go right in your life, give credit to the one who deserves it. Even the air that we breathe is His. As He opens doors and blesses us, we must be sure to give Him the glory.

Step 4
“He will make your paths straight.”Once we have been trusting God, not relying on ourselves, and continually acknowledging Him we will see clearly the way in which He wants us to go. He will direct our paths and help us to go in the right direction.

Step 5
Know that God has Plans for You. This is a continual process because God has great plans for us.

I hope all the things that I know will never be repeated once more and put all my trust into Him..

God Bless!

Amen!

Business Confidential Vs KS

Business Confidential...HaHaHa recently really tired because I have unfinished work...today i finished it but tomorrow will have new one again...everyday is challenging...I took my work back to do today because I scare I can't manage to finish it on Time>.<...I should say Today's work must done by Today...don't wan to break my own Record HaHa...actually I'm also very KS Hahaha...KS = Kia Shu lolxxxx

The CG PJC1 celebrated our CL'S birthday together...Happy Birthday to you, CL^^ God bless^^

Sunday 7, June 2009

Wow, time really flies. In another 94 days I’ll be going back. However, after 9 months I’ll be coming back to West Malaysia for work again. This was what I had planned now, and as for now I have no plans of changing it but who knows in this 9 months time, I’ll have a different plan again? Haha God will be arranging it for me…

In this week, there isn’t much pressure because I no longer that busy for my job anymore. I think it’s about time to prepare myself to return to my student’s life. Time to continue to work hard… please cheer me on for this 9 months of duration, especially in getting used to the new environment.

From this point onwards, I’ll be sharing some things that I’ve experienced. Recently, I’ve been feeling quite tired, probably because I’m lacking physical strength? Or maybe I’ve been eating too much? Haha I think it’s probably because I sleep late in the night, not sure why do I have this sort of feeling… Although I feel tired, I feel like sleeping is a waste of time. I’ve been scared that I would have missed out stuff, especially events. I’m being greedy…

The bad thing is…actually I’m okay last night..but because a sudden sms...because of those words..because of misunderstanding...i cried last midnight…but thank God that this morning my eyes didn’t swell all from the cry from last midnight… thank God… I pray that my heart will always be able to calm. Praying you and I…

The student service finally started yesterday… This is my first time serving at the Communion team. It’s refreshing, and I thank God for leading me...Regarding the service… it looks as if I’m not in condition... I hope I’ll be able to catch up ^^

This morning all of us went to TTDI for jogging and fellowship together.... It was a good experience for me… There is happy experience… Angry… Funny... sections for question and answer.. and I found that if a CG has no leaders, all team will seem as if there aren’t any leaders, and therefore the teams will be viewed as a weak team... so I know that leaders are actually very important to us.. thank God I’ve finally chose to attend this morning and get lots of fun and experience…

Lastly, I’ll like to thank our organiser… thank you for your efforts…

This is our group photo…

wow^^

SHARALENE^^

PJC1

This is College’s group photo…

That’s all for today… Hope that the new week will be great!

My eldest Sister

My eldest sister was married on march, but I haven't seen the pictures till now...it's a shame that i didn't attend my eldest sister's wedding...felt regret since my eldest sister is the one who concerns me the most, because when I was young my parents were always busy, but my eldest sister took care of me very, very much....Thank you Sis...Happy belated wedding...Hope to see you soon^^

Saturday, May 30, 2009

Finally, school holiday had arrived. However, I don’t feel happy about it. I might be happy since my daily life would be much more quiet HAHAHA, however, my part time job's time duration will be shortened due to the holiday...lolxxx

My colleagues had quit her job. Having to know her for about two months, I find that she’s a cute and simple girl. Besides that, she’s helpful and thought me various things on how to attend parents. I had learnt a lot from her. Though I’m a very playful colleague, she’d still be glad to entertain me. Since she’s no longer working alongside with me, I felt a loss of a wonderful partner like her to fool around in the office....lolxx again...

Oh well, when I woke up this morning, I received a message from ‘S’, after reading the message, I was shocked as what ‘S’ had wrote in the message which I do not really understand lolxxx. At my condition which I’m partially awake and which partially understanding in ‘S’ message, I fell asleep again… zzzZZZzzz q(~(00)~)p..lolxxxx

After fully awake at 9 o’clock, reading back the same message, then I realized what ‘S’ message means. Though there’s some “un-delightful” meaning in the message??? maybe I think too much or so...WATEVER...

Well, my unhappy feeling stops here and not going to think more about it. Let it be natural… feels like I’m trying to escape from this situation??? But, I guess everything is all planed by God. I guess I don’t need to worry too much and live my life happily…^^

In a blink of light, tomorrow is Sunday and I have to go back…

Sorting out my feelings and being ready to go back home!!!

SHE’s
The one I respect...
The one I learn from...
The one that I know what I’m doing...
The one I felt annoyed sometime but her advice is for my own good...
The one that I felt that someone who really cares for me...
The one that let me know more about God...
The one that reminds me God is always with me...
The one that reminds me to do my prayers...
The one that I thought whom I do not really understand...
The one that let me clearly know myself...
and much more...
She Oh she

LOLxxx

Friday 29.05.09

I had arrived and somehow I felt relief. Maybe is due to that I met up with own family members. Furthermore, it’s HOLIDAY!!! So, I bet these 2 weeks I’ll have a peaceful life? Lolxxxx…

Currently I’m on Facebook looking through the memorable photos. I felt that the present me can’t compete with the happiness of my past. Looking at myself in the old photo, I smiled stupidly in front of my computer…haha

Here goes a few of my old photos...

Daddy and Mummy^^

This is my favorite, Genting’s Space Shooter...

2008’s happy ending...Retired from the responsibility of UCS Student Council...

Might be able to be a model in the future hor?? but have to slim down for the moment, having too much food making me more plump...Lolxxxxx

2007 Trip to KuChing

2008 Trip to Genting

S.H.E HAHAHA

I recalled this is when we just arrive from Kuching to Sibu^^

Having a BBQ party at the campus canteen/cafeteria

first time i drive the toyota camry^^..

Rui Yue and I

My BEST frens during my diploma studies

Diploma's Graduation^^

KOMAG

AHMO From Melbourne..Lolxxx...handsome ler? hahaha

Liang Liang^^

Eventually, flashing back to the past I managed to find myself...
Well, that’s all for now. Feeling tired at the moment and can’t wait for tomorrow’s consecutive events. Finally, wishing myself HAPPY WEEK END! Lolxxxx^^

Just too Tired

I’m not psychologically tired, but it’s something that I don’t understand, something that is hard to understand.
I can’t find anyone whom I can speak to...

And I don't even know how to share it with You, O Lord...
Finished typing my message but I did not send it out…

I’ve thought and thought about it and accidentally fell asleep...
There’s a lot of bad intentions...
Dislike Human, because they’ve been fake...
Dislike myself, because I am unable to conceal my unhappiness, and due to this reason, I’ve made people worried…
But are they really worried?
I’m starting to lose my trust in people
I think I am really mistaken…
Mistaken…
Miserably mistaken…
Lord…you're becoming further and further away from me…
I have no more will to pray anymore…

tired~huuuuu~

CLaRa tells herself to reminisce her past when the time allows...

Do I have to go back through time?
Just when I woke up, I thought it was 7a.m. next morning…
I wondered why is the time flying like this? I felt like my breathe halted for a bit…
I’ve been suffering these few days…
You and I
I’m starting to become confused…
It’s filled with uncertainty what awaits me…
At this moment, I’m hoping that, you will be with me, walking on the same path…
Just like how we made our promise…
But it feels like the promise is broken…
I’m sorry about that…
Messages can’t really give me anything…
I finally understood how miserable this feeling is…
This is once again a time when I’m waiting for MY OWN ANSWER…
What do I really want?
What will be the best for me?
God, what is your plan?
He…has been on my mind…

CLaRa TanG...

Din you realise that...
It’s almost A Year…