The things that is bothering me has finally been resolved. But there are still a lot of things that I need to push forward and I probably have no time to stop and rest. Soon… and very soon, I am going to have a new journey in my life. I don’t know what will happen next, but I’m trying my best to pray and seek for guidance from God. I believe He will lead me through these difficulties.
Tonight I went for gym. It’s a very nice and stress-releasing place to go to. So, after an hour of exercise, I feel refreshed.
Today I was supposed to go for X-Ray and blood test. There’s nothing much to worry. I was just going to check my own health. I am stressing up about this blood test because I’m scared of pain, especially when my mum is not beside me. I’m alone at the clinic.
Been praying hard to God, wishing at least someone can accompany or just stay beside me when I do all these checkups. Lord has answered my prayer and His angel actually spoke to me this morning and through our conversation, my blood test today has been very funny and I was talking to myself mentally =/
This is my conversation with her.
im.xinyuan: mmm okla den ...
go ahead with ur work baa
haf a blessed day ^^
may you haf personal encounter with God today ^^
8:43 AM miracles will happen!!
me: Amen..pls pray for me huh...later they need to takemy blood..oh gosh..i scare pain...without mummy de faint...
im.xinyuan: wun pain de laa... u just think of me.. den u wun scare liaw...
wahahahha~~~~
8:44 AM me: lol sure...
God bless ur day
buaiiiiii
love uuuuuuuu
hugzzzzz
im.xinyuan: love u too ... ^^
hugzzz**
She told me that the blood test is not as pain as I thought and asked me to only think about her so that I won’t feel pain.
So when I reached the clinic and when the doctor wanted to take my blood, the doctor said to me, “girl, won’t pain lah”, and I was like, “okay”, because this morning the angel told me that it’s not so painful. So at that moment, deep inside my heart and brain, all I thought about is “arghh Shepherd, you said won’t pain, you said won’t pain de…don’t lie to me” hahahaha =D
But suddenly, I heard a voice spoke to me. “Hey Clara, are you supposed to think only about your shepherd? What about me? I’m the one who has the power to heal your pain”. I was like, “Oh Nooooo~ Oh Lord, I’m wrong” and I quickly changed my mind and asked for the healing power from God. Sweattttttt’’’
Even though the blood test took a while, I was having a funny conversation with God and the scary thought has all ended.
Thanks Shepherd, because I remembered that you told me in the past not to rely too much on man but God. I have finally experienced it and Lord healed my pain. But still I miss you so much. Hopefully I can see you on July, your big day of the month =D
I miss home. I can say I’m no longer who I am already. I have changed in just two years. When I was young, I always tell my family member that I want to go out for a better future. I don’t want to just stay at my hometown, because my hometown is too small for me to grow.
Somehow with the question they asked, so how about your family? If you study and work outside, do you miss us? Or how about your doggies? I was like errrrmmm, mummy will help me took care of them and of course God will help me to take care of my family. I don’t have to worry about that. So this is what I thought last time.
I was regretted what I have thought after two years and when I think back, I admit that it was a normal thinking for just a little girl and now I grew up. I started to worry about how long I can survive outside without my family. I’m worrying about how long would I need to study and work outside. Do I have extra time to just be close with my family members? My thought from now on no longer is just my future but more on Family. I’m happy with what I thought, because I’m not belonged to those who are selfish to just think about themselves. Oops, do I judge anybody else? No, I didn’t mean it.
Perhaps, it’s too early to worry about all this things for just 22 years old girl right? Aiks, I just always lost my way when I think of my family, perhaps they’re too important for me. I THANK GOD that He gave me this opportunity to love and repent. It’s never too late for us to repent, for those young people, please do appreciate your family.
Nevertheless, I should pray and ask God more about this, hopefully I am able to handle my problem on this situation.
Let’s talk about what I have done today. Today I woke up very early due to my eye infection, I couldn’t say I’m so unfortunate because every month have to pay for medicine for all kind of disease that caused me unhealthy. Think positively, I am just too tired recently and my eye was infected due to the fatigue. In faith, I trust God will heal me and I pray that my next body check up will shows that I’m healthy in His hand.
Finally, today I also bought an umbrella for myself. Normally I won’t bother myself to take umbrella when I am out. Just it’s really too hot recently and the weather is uncontrollable. So it’s better for me to get an umbrella soon. RM30, quite expensive for me but with the advantage of UV Protection, I guess I am happy to get it out. Just it’s time to treat myself good if I can afford it.
Stop by here today, I’m so excited to attend Hope Service on tomorrow or every Sunday, it’s simply because when I come to church, I feel like I am closer to Him. Relaxxxxxxxxxxx =D
Today God told me to Love Him, Love Myself, Love My Family, Love My Friends, Love My Neighbors, and Love My Enemies.
From my own point of view: Actually, once the Holy Spirit starts to transmit N impart His love into us, it will become much easier for us to be able to love others in the way God wants us to be able to love them. Love your God, love yourself N love other people in the way God intended. Amen.
I should say I had done what I am supposed to do this week. I did it patiently, praying in my heart every minute when I’m doing them. I didn’t complain much, but I told Him that I trust Him, I trust that He will give me the best results or things to turn out the way that I want.
Fortunately, I received a result today, though I’m still unsure about it. But I know HE made me successful with HIS hands. Dear Lord, I pray that you will continue to be with me the next week, the following week and forever. I love you so much =D
I want to give my special thanks to a person whose name is Kimberly Wong, my Shepherd in my previous church. She supported me mentally, I appreciate all her blessings, story sharing, bible verses and advices through sms. Shepherd, as you know, His words really makes sense to me. I pray that our relationship will last forever with His guidance. I love you =) hugzzz
Secondly, I want to thank my mummy, my family, cousins and friends, because they always called me up and said some encouraging words. I am really touched in all the ways that you all took care of me. I thank God for all of this.
Well, through all of you, I promise myself to keep moving forward. There are still a lot of things waiting of me to discover and learn. Thankful to God and I pray that He will continue to grant me wisdom and strength to learn new things.
This is my breakfast+lunch+dinner today hahaha. I took away from outside. Hmmm honestly, it’s not delicious at all, but I thank God for the food and I am happy to have this dinner. I am just in a very good mood right now.
Stop here today. May God bless all of you abundantly =D
Today I woke up with my repenting heart, because I didn’t attend Sunday service. Woke up late and I know this is not a good reason for me and Father in Heaven.
As usual, after I finished my devotion in the morning, I cooked the breakfast and enjoy the food alone, and in my heart I am praying and thank to God deeply for the new day.
This is my brunch for today. Not delicious at all but I thank God for the Food.
Tang's family has been blessed by God! My nephew was born to this world this afternoon! so yes...we welcome you, my dear nephew =)
The things that is bothering me has finally been resolved. But there are still a lot of things that I need to push forward and I probably have no time to stop and rest. Soon… and very soon, I am going to have a new journey in my life. I don’t know what will happen next, but I’m trying my best to pray and seek for guidance from God. I believe He will lead me through these difficulties.
