Break Free

Today?

How are your spiriTs foR Today?

Hehehe~

My mood is very Good Today =)

No reaL ReasoN, jusT Happy with Life (=

十月

又好一阵子没上来了, 因为今天是2009年十月的最后一天, 就上来看看能为自己留下什么(:

就这样很快的又过了两个月, 最近的我过得蛮充实的, 没什么特别事发生, 但是忙了点...我感谢天父爸爸一直与我同在.

最近突然担心以前从不担心的东西? 就是"时间"...正所谓一寸光阴一寸金, 寸金难买寸光阴, 以前从不欣赏这句话, 但最近终于明白其意义, 迟了些?

以前总是希望时间能快点过, 快点把书读完, 然后就可以出社会工作, 但现在却发觉, 当你慢慢得到自己所要的东西后, 付出的代价就是自己的光阴. 再说明显点, 就是岁月不留人(: 突然好想唱一首歌, 时间时间等等我, 我有话要说, 我有话要说......

十一月即将来临, 一个对我来说是可喜可悲的一个月, 但也是我一年里最喜欢的一个月, 因为十一月就是妈妈把我带来世上的一个月^^谢谢爸爸妈妈的养育之恩, 谢谢天父爸爸无时无刻都与我同在(:

十一月有个超级大的任务要完成, 希望能成功, 不然就人头落地? 啊~也没那么严重啦哈哈哈...愿自己会成功.

好啦, 小女子就此停笔, 余言后叙...跳!

释怀2009.10.31

Psalm 23

Try saying it slowly...

"The Lord is my Shepherd; I shall not want."

Again,

"The Lord is my Shepherd; I shall not want."

Again,

"The Lord is my Shepherd; I shall not want."

Shhhhhhhhhh......

Did you hear something?

I think I did (:

but I'm not sure :)

Amen...

God Bless 7 October, 2009

TRAVELING LIGHT

THE GREAT HOUSE OF GOD

CHAPTER 4 The Prison of Want

MAX LUCADO

PasT, PresenT N FuTuRe

Leav3 d3 PasT iN d3 PasT,

d3 FuTuRe In d3 FuTuRe,

N EnJoY de PresenT of Th3 PresenT…

God has His plaN foR us…

Be PatieNt N TrusT iN Him Who knowS our FutuRe…

I wiLL be RighT her3, waiting FoR you…

Don’t Worry…

Proverbs 3:5-6
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;

In all your ways acknowledge Him

And He will make your paths straight".

God Bless

66dayS

FighT FoR 66dayS from Now...

FinisH It...

N you wiLL se3 thE ResulT tHat you had FighT foR...

God BLesS.

有感而发

好一阵子没上来了...

因为都在忙些零零碎碎的东西...

熬夜的习惯慢慢改了

饮食习惯变好了

很喜欢最近的生活，很踏实很安宁. 充实得可爱...

原来简单的生活也可以很幸福...

中秋节快乐.

I like BEING BUSY+Roommate and I

I like BEING BUSY...

It had been awhile that I haven’t update my blog. What else can I say, I’m busy alright..
But, isn’t it holiday? What’s there to be busy about?

There are many things surrounding me and a lot of these things and decisions need to be solved by me such as; events, study, family, my lovely Father Lord and etc…

Though I am feeling kind of tired, still I told myself that if only I could see the result, it’ll be worth all the trouble....

Eventually, I’ll be going to Metakab with my roommate and will be staying there for 3 days. Hopefully I’ll be able to accompany her more for the while because recently I’ve not been approaching her in fact I was always being or focus with another sister...

Anyway, what I could say is that both of you are my dearest sisters in Christ. (LoLxx, last night I just asked her that, “I felt that, seems like you don’t SAYANG me that much recently, en’t yea? hahaha)

I enjoyed listening to her Bible story just before every of my bed time….

Whenever I’m in a bad mood, she’ll always tell me that, “the moral of the story in bible which I would like to tell you…lalalala hahahaha but always rejected by me..because I’m in bad mood…haha

She also always took me to church or around and let me know a lot of brothers and sisters in Christ…especially Pastor Willie..lolxxx SHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH…

She also let me help her with ease...

She will get jealous too…arhahahahha…right? Soe Kian? hahaha

She will also share with me about her side of personal matters, and etc…

I really appreciate being with her and you are one in whole of my 22 years worth living of life whom really Amor me as a roommate...

Te Amo…(in Latin which means I love you as in Te “you” Amo “I love”) haha
(Remembered that I told you I’ll sing to you “My Most Beloved One” on your wedding day last night?? LoLxx. Can’t wait for that day to come…lolxxxx)

Seems to be out of topic for the moment. LoLxxxx-_-...That’s all folks…

1st time we met and really knew each other

Love you in Chirst,

Roommate@CLaRa

A day Trip at Cameron Highland

One of my church leader had me reminded myself that it had been quite sometime that I din update my blog in blogspot le…

Recently I’m doing good, not as tired as before but I should really say, God is giving me a lot of challenges, but I LIKE IT..because of this, I really feel that I, myself had really grown a lots tru this one year in Hope church…

Now is outreach season…I’m learning to take care of new visitor and praying for them all the way, because I really used to let my Shepherd or Leaders take care of me so it’s quite a big challenge for me now..i feel tht it is my turn to learn how to take care of ppl and bring ppl to church and not to think of giving up and give many reason to myself saying tht I dunno how to care of ppl…ya Lord, let me be strong and courageous..do not be terrified, do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever I go..

Oh well, I actually have a fruitful weekend last week…me and all my leaders went to cameron highland for meeting…but I’m de one who in charge to help them to take photo…enjoyed taking photos up there and enjoyed de fruits up there as well…especially knowing how leaders work together as a team^^...thank God for giving me this opportunity to learn from them...

Here are de photos that I took at cameron highland…because there are a lot of photos so I won’t upload them all here…enjoy to view my photos ya^^

Thank God for de trip at C.H… I’m happy tht I can be with you guys all de time..appreciate it…I’m going to leave PJ for nine months for educational purposes…dunno wht will happen within this nine months after I leave..but it’s certain tht I will miss you guys..time really flies..as time draws closer it feels more and more harder to part with all of you..but I will always keep my brothers and sisters in christ with my prayer no matter where I am..

Update myself until here…to be continued…^^

1 John 1:9

1John 1:9

"If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness."

Do you ever think about why the Lord had to die on the Cross?

I do, and every time I do, I remember it was for Me, O Lord...

That it was because of my sin and the things in my life I have either done or not done that have hurt God and my fellow man.

It is a truly humbling thought to know that He went through all that suffering just for me..

And I am constantly asking for His forgiveness for all the pain and suffering He had to bear.

Forgive M3, O Lord

Monday, 29 June 2009 どもありがとうございます

Day before yesterday my left eye got infected by bacteria and was swollen...don’t know why it happened so suddenly too-_- because I thought I’m just too tired, thought there’s nothing...

However, my eyes just became red and swollen. I felt pain, tears kept running down my cheeks..
Yesterday morning, after waking up, I still felt that pain in my eyes. After the devotion with Sharon, I followed uncle and auntie to town.

This time God sent me Uncle and Aunty to take me to see a doctor and their daughter had accompanied me and I felt touched…

Uncle and aunty brought me and Sharon for breakfast after the checkup. Before breakfast, we went for a stroll in town. We bought veges and breads…

When I came back, I took my med and went to sleep..

When I woke up, I saw uncle is preparing dinner, While waiting, I saw DC and Wei Qi playing guitar, then I accompanied them to sing Christian song..

Yesterday, aunty made me happy because every sentences she spoke will end with a smile..as for me, I smiled and smiled too until that the pain in my eye was gone…ahahaha…

The dinner was awesome…with an addition of Sharon’s maths teacher, Kerry, was also a funny guy which could only speak English… (A Chinese man which only speaks English and do not know Chinese, we call them banana hahahaha) During dinner time, there was uncle, aunty, DC, Wei Qi, Sharon, Kerry and me… with all of us the surrounding were much more merrier and the food tasted much more better..

After dinner, there were Sharon’s refreshments

This morning, Sharon went to school..
Aunty asked me for breakfast…

Aunty also asked me to take out their pet dog, Midnight…to poo/shit…haha

Uncle and aunty took me to the KL Sentral LRT station..
Now… I’m back!
Thank God that giving me these two days … I appreciated it and thanks to uncle and aunty, Sharon and DC to let me have the feeling of being at home…でわ,どもありがとうございます!

It's just a key.. but so much to wait...

Even though its just a sentence, it had me a lot to think about. It’s just a key, but so much to wait. What if its just a small matter, which I myself is unable to solve?

Again and again, asking myself, am I running away from this?

Last night, I shared few of my personal troubles with my roommate. However, I was unable to completely share what’s troubleling me which I had no guts to share it yet…?

I hate myself where everytime I’m able to BINGO each every next action others will do, each every next thoughts others will think about, because of this, everytime i really had a hard time to share my personal things because i actually know what they will advice what they will say and purpose for what i share again? there are many times that i rather choose to share with my doll or dogs because only both of them are the ones that i can't predict at all..sounds funny? but i'm serious...This had troubled me a lot. I may say this is a gift from God, which I am able to make use of this gift without letting me in pain…Isn't it God?

Most of my closest friends thought that we are in the same pack. We were able to have the same thoughts and same actions, but they never know that I am actually able to BINGO their actions and this is quite a pain for me. It feels scary right?

God, I believe those that You’ve told me, You had already told me. I had tried to share those three matters to my leaders, and all left for me whether I could give it all in to you. I pray deep in my heart…

I really do care on my 2nd and 3rd matters. I believe that everything is taken care by You. The key is in Your hands, will you unlock my door to brightness or will be ever closed up in this chamber. I really have no idea with this...

I chose to believe in You. I would never doubt the key which You are holding to it. Let it be that everything is taken care by You, oh Lord...

Proverbs 3:5-6

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight".

Step 1
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart.”This is the key to our relationship with God-to trust in Him with all of our hearts. We know from the New Testament that this can only be accomplished through faith in His Son.

Step 2
“Lean not on your own understanding”Once we know we are trusting God, we must be conscious not to trust on or in anything else including our own understanding and wisdom. When we do trust in these other things we tend to misinterpret the messages that God is giving us. This makes it easy for us to be deceived into thinking that God is leading us in a direction where we want to go when he is in fact not.

Step 3
“In all your ways acknowledge him”Always give credit to God and not take any yourself. Remember, everything good comes from above. As things go right in your life, give credit to the one who deserves it. Even the air that we breathe is His. As He opens doors and blesses us, we must be sure to give Him the glory.

Step 4
“He will make your paths straight.”Once we have been trusting God, not relying on ourselves, and continually acknowledging Him we will see clearly the way in which He wants us to go. He will direct our paths and help us to go in the right direction.

Step 5
Know that God has Plans for You. This is a continual process because God has great plans for us.

I hope all the things that I know will never be repeated once more and put all my trust into Him..

God Bless!

Amen!

Business Confidential Vs KS

Business Confidential...HaHaHa recently really tired because I have unfinished work...today i finished it but tomorrow will have new one again...everyday is challenging...I took my work back to do today because I scare I can't manage to finish it on Time>.<...I should say Today's work must done by Today...don't wan to break my own Record HaHa...actually I'm also very KS Hahaha...KS = Kia Shu lolxxxx

The CG PJC1 celebrated our CL'S birthday together...Happy Birthday to you, CL^^ God bless^^

Sunday 7, June 2009

Wow, time really flies. In another 94 days I’ll be going back. However, after 9 months I’ll be coming back to West Malaysia for work again. This was what I had planned now, and as for now I have no plans of changing it but who knows in this 9 months time, I’ll have a different plan again? Haha God will be arranging it for me…

In this week, there isn’t much pressure because I no longer that busy for my job anymore. I think it’s about time to prepare myself to return to my student’s life. Time to continue to work hard… please cheer me on for this 9 months of duration, especially in getting used to the new environment.

From this point onwards, I’ll be sharing some things that I’ve experienced. Recently, I’ve been feeling quite tired, probably because I’m lacking physical strength? Or maybe I’ve been eating too much? Haha I think it’s probably because I sleep late in the night, not sure why do I have this sort of feeling… Although I feel tired, I feel like sleeping is a waste of time. I’ve been scared that I would have missed out stuff, especially events. I’m being greedy…

The bad thing is…actually I’m okay last night..but because a sudden sms...because of those words..because of misunderstanding...i cried last midnight…but thank God that this morning my eyes didn’t swell all from the cry from last midnight… thank God… I pray that my heart will always be able to calm. Praying you and I…

The student service finally started yesterday… This is my first time serving at the Communion team. It’s refreshing, and I thank God for leading me...Regarding the service… it looks as if I’m not in condition... I hope I’ll be able to catch up ^^

This morning all of us went to TTDI for jogging and fellowship together.... It was a good experience for me… There is happy experience… Angry… Funny... sections for question and answer.. and I found that if a CG has no leaders, all team will seem as if there aren’t any leaders, and therefore the teams will be viewed as a weak team... so I know that leaders are actually very important to us.. thank God I’ve finally chose to attend this morning and get lots of fun and experience…

Lastly, I’ll like to thank our organiser… thank you for your efforts…

This is our group photo…

wow^^

SHARALENE^^

PJC1

This is College’s group photo…

That’s all for today… Hope that the new week will be great!

My eldest Sister

My eldest sister was married on march, but I haven't seen the pictures till now...it's a shame that i didn't attend my eldest sister's wedding...felt regret since my eldest sister is the one who concerns me the most, because when I was young my parents were always busy, but my eldest sister took care of me very, very much....Thank you Sis...Happy belated wedding...Hope to see you soon^^

Saturday, May 30, 2009

Finally, school holiday had arrived. However, I don’t feel happy about it. I might be happy since my daily life would be much more quiet HAHAHA, however, my part time job's time duration will be shortened due to the holiday...lolxxx

My colleagues had quit her job. Having to know her for about two months, I find that she’s a cute and simple girl. Besides that, she’s helpful and thought me various things on how to attend parents. I had learnt a lot from her. Though I’m a very playful colleague, she’d still be glad to entertain me. Since she’s no longer working alongside with me, I felt a loss of a wonderful partner like her to fool around in the office....lolxx again...

Oh well, when I woke up this morning, I received a message from ‘S’, after reading the message, I was shocked as what ‘S’ had wrote in the message which I do not really understand lolxxx. At my condition which I’m partially awake and which partially understanding in ‘S’ message, I fell asleep again… zzzZZZzzz q(~(00)~)p..lolxxxx

After fully awake at 9 o’clock, reading back the same message, then I realized what ‘S’ message means. Though there’s some “un-delightful” meaning in the message??? maybe I think too much or so...WATEVER...

Well, my unhappy feeling stops here and not going to think more about it. Let it be natural… feels like I’m trying to escape from this situation??? But, I guess everything is all planed by God. I guess I don’t need to worry too much and live my life happily…^^

In a blink of light, tomorrow is Sunday and I have to go back…

Sorting out my feelings and being ready to go back home!!!

SHE’s
The one I respect...
The one I learn from...
The one that I know what I’m doing...
The one I felt annoyed sometime but her advice is for my own good...
The one that I felt that someone who really cares for me...
The one that let me know more about God...
The one that reminds me God is always with me...
The one that reminds me to do my prayers...
The one that I thought whom I do not really understand...
The one that let me clearly know myself...
and much more...
She Oh she

LOLxxx

Friday 29.05.09

I had arrived and somehow I felt relief. Maybe is due to that I met up with own family members. Furthermore, it’s HOLIDAY!!! So, I bet these 2 weeks I’ll have a peaceful life? Lolxxxx…

Currently I’m on Facebook looking through the memorable photos. I felt that the present me can’t compete with the happiness of my past. Looking at myself in the old photo, I smiled stupidly in front of my computer…haha

Here goes a few of my old photos...

Daddy and Mummy^^

This is my favorite, Genting’s Space Shooter...

2008’s happy ending...Retired from the responsibility of UCS Student Council...

Might be able to be a model in the future hor?? but have to slim down for the moment, having too much food making me more plump...Lolxxxxx

2007 Trip to KuChing

2008 Trip to Genting

S.H.E HAHAHA

I recalled this is when we just arrive from Kuching to Sibu^^

Having a BBQ party at the campus canteen/cafeteria

first time i drive the toyota camry^^..

Rui Yue and I

My BEST frens during my diploma studies

Diploma's Graduation^^

KOMAG

AHMO From Melbourne..Lolxxx...handsome ler? hahaha

Liang Liang^^

Eventually, flashing back to the past I managed to find myself...
Well, that’s all for now. Feeling tired at the moment and can’t wait for tomorrow’s consecutive events. Finally, wishing myself HAPPY WEEK END! Lolxxxx^^

Just too Tired

I’m not psychologically tired, but it’s something that I don’t understand, something that is hard to understand.
I can’t find anyone whom I can speak to...

And I don't even know how to share it with You, O Lord...
Finished typing my message but I did not send it out…

I’ve thought and thought about it and accidentally fell asleep...
There’s a lot of bad intentions...
Dislike Human, because they’ve been fake...
Dislike myself, because I am unable to conceal my unhappiness, and due to this reason, I’ve made people worried…
But are they really worried?
I’m starting to lose my trust in people
I think I am really mistaken…
Mistaken…
Miserably mistaken…
Lord…you're becoming further and further away from me…
I have no more will to pray anymore…

tired~huuuuu~

CLaRa tells herself to reminisce her past when the time allows...

Do I have to go back through time?
Just when I woke up, I thought it was 7a.m. next morning…
I wondered why is the time flying like this? I felt like my breathe halted for a bit…
I’ve been suffering these few days…
You and I
I’m starting to become confused…
It’s filled with uncertainty what awaits me…
At this moment, I’m hoping that, you will be with me, walking on the same path…
Just like how we made our promise…
But it feels like the promise is broken…
I’m sorry about that…
Messages can’t really give me anything…
I finally understood how miserable this feeling is…
This is once again a time when I’m waiting for MY OWN ANSWER…
What do I really want?
What will be the best for me?
God, what is your plan?
He…has been on my mind…

CLaRa TanG...

Din you realise that...
It’s almost A Year…

Helena’s Wedding

Concerning Helena’s wedding, I wanted to post this onto my blog quite long ago. Unfortunately that, I have no time to do so until now hehe, I finally manage to sort out my time to post those wonderful photos during her wedding ceremony^^

It was an extraordinary wedding ceremony which was held outdoor at Putrajaya. God had blessed them with a pleasant weather. The theme for the wedding ceremony was ‘The Covenant under the Rainbow’. Thanks a lot to Helena for the wedding invitation. May my blessing for both of you, husband and wife be eternal.

Brothers and Sisters In Christ^^

CLaRa, Marlene and Sharon^^

CL, CLaRa, Marlene, Sharon and Pat:)

爱人 and I

JCthai and I

SHARALENE^^

Wht happen? haha

Wei Khang and I

Poh Ee and I

wow~ haha

Liu Qiang and I

Enjoy viewing the photos...lolxxx

Group photo of CG

This is our PJC1 CG's group photo...I love the brothers and sisters in Christ so much^^I feel like i'm wrapped by Family^^ Thank God:)

A Memorable Trip at Bangkok

Well well well Clarathai is back from Bangkok and back to the practical world again…
If you ask me how was de trip? I will definitely tell you the trip was so amazing and fun for me because we had a good planner and because of the him, our trip went very smoothly and relaxing…well hahaha suddenly a verse slipped into mind…Matthew 6:25 states that “therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life”…because Jesus is de one who really plan for us…

I had learned a lot of things from my brothers and sisters who went to bangkok together with me…they are my shepherd, Kimberly Wong, my roommate, Soe Kian, my housemate, Set Yee, and my church’s friends Patricia, Jin Chuan, Nicholas and Chloe…

if you ask me again what have I learnt from this trip? Wao…I think de answer that I want to share will be really long for you...because I’m de youngest one in de team so I really give my thanks to God that He gave me this opportunity to learn from them…I can see a lot of things through them…how to handle ourselves when in bad mood..happy and sad…and how to negotiate when buying things lolxx..(this you can learn from my shepherd, Kimberly Wong, because she’s really good in negotiation haha) how to control ourselves so that will not spend too much …how to lead a team members with different kind of characteristics…how to survive in this extremely HOT weather while having fun together…how to share things together…how to play together…how to read and share de book that we bought from this trip…how to fish at night.. how to handle your mood when u fish nth but there are a lots of SOTONG fish from others haha...and most important thing is how to communicate with them when our language is totally different with them…wow…there are really a lot of things to learn from this trip...Give thanks to You my Lovely God all de time^^

In this 10-day trip…I also ran into hardships. Brothers and sisters, please forgive me since i might have ran into bad mood at times just because of my toothache that attacked me and also because of the hot weather…hahaha but I thank God that he really gave an Angel to me and talk to me and even asked his Angel to calm myself down and woke me up or pulled me up when I’m down or whenever I was giving up…that is really amazing for me…

Commenting about Bangkok… Hmmm I can only say everything is okay for me except the hot weather and I actually enjoyed de environment and the culture there very much…the residents are friendly and easy to communicate makes me feel relaxed to stay over there…Kropkunka^^

Wao…seems like really a lot of thing to share…start to miss the time we are together in the island and Bangkok as well... miss the cheerful laughing sound... miss the hot weather that made me ran into bad mood at times... miss Bangkok's foods... miss the Seven-Eleven... miss the colourful taxi... and the time we were shopping together... everything over there... hope i can recover my mood as soon as possible...hahahha…

Last but not least…this time we took a lot of photos in this trip..I won’t upload all of them here because there are really thousand of photos with me now…hahaha…I will only choose 200-250 to upload…brothers and sisters enjoy your time ya^^ will be back soon….

KROPKUNKA for this trip^^A Memorable Trip^^

Gan ba lei (Kimberly)

Set Yee, what are u staring at?

So Nic, which one do you prefer to buy?

Hmm this hat seems to be okay la haha

Hehe handsome right? I took it secretly. lolxx

@_@

Obi: I feel hot-_-

I like this picture. Too bad that I’m not in there…remember to thank me for taking the photo…lolxxx

Green rabbit

I like this photo… she seems very happy when she was laughing…

Shepherd and I

Looking at the future…lolxxx

Shepherd, is our future there? Let’s charge! ^^

CLaRa, Set Yee, Pat and My Roommate, Lim Soe Kian^^

Start to make posses

Poses 1

Poses 2

Poses 3

Poses 4

And Poses 5 hahaha~

Cute

Fierce

Shy^^

This book represents our whole trip… everyone has it^^

Snapshot 1… You look a little handsome la… just a little la…hahaha

Take one photo before we leave the island…sad sad-_-

Housemate, Yeethai and I

Patthai and I

Fangthai and I

JCthai and I

Shepherd and I

Bangkok City

Buy as much as we can since it’s really cheap...hehehe^^

Even though after paying money, we still felt happy since everything is really cheap...lolxxx

Our lunch after shopping at Tesco

Nicthai and Jcthai

Clarathai and Nicthai

Kimthai: Should pack it up before boarding the airplane ^^

A card and a SD card...KropKunKa for leading our trip^^

Our group photo, before we are preparing to return to Malaysia...

CLaRathai

This consequence tells us not to spend too much on shopping lolxxxxx

I like this pHOto^^

Kimthai and I

Roommate and I

Guess who and who?

yeaaaaaa~

Our next year’s promise^^

Jump Jump Jump...

It’s really hot...lolxxx

She’s busy with her work even when she’s on a trip…Hallo JCI, Kim Speaking, how may I help you? haha…@_@

归派气功 lolxx

What are we looking at?

Look, the sun has risen^^

Burger Muuuuuuuuuuu^^

Cheers!

Ah Bi and I, when we are waiting for sunrise...

The Sunset

It’s really hot..lolxx

Finally I had a taste on mangosteen..thank u roommate^^

Night fishing at sea-_-

Got nothing from fishing ler… depressing lolxxx...

No.9 Thai and I… to be honest, he’s quite handsome lolxxx

Burger Muuuuuuuuuuuuu

Filled with sadness because we are back at Malaysia

SawadiKap^^

sorry...haha because I didn't adjust the photo based on the date, still in lazy mood now hahaha and actually delayed to update my blog hehe and sorry again because i didn't comment much about each photos, probably caused by my laziness again ar ha ha ha ha.. anyway..I still wish you guys can enjoy our bangkok trip's Photos^^

Sports day Rehearsal

Yesterday is our school’s sports day rehearsal. Early in the morning I came to school with high expectations to gather up with the teachers. We took off to Shah Alam tracker field at 8am.

This is a splendid rehearsal, except that it was hot that I couldn’t stand this kind of weather. Moreover, for this whole week, there’s a part of my tooth aching terribly. It’s like, though I’m laughing, but in fact, the pain is felt in my heart.

These are all my colleagues. But in fact, they have their naughty side ^^

Nowadays, I’ve noticed that I’m growing sideways>.> Oh no>.<… I don’t want this…time to slim down…

This is my manager… When she’s talking in phone, I disturb her by taking her photo along with me. After rehearsal, she noticed about the photo that Ms Tee took. She bragged that I was only kacau kacau her hehehe^^

This is this year’s sports outfit. I’m in “green house”, and green is my favourite colour ^^. Green house, please do our best! Thanks Ms Tee for designing the sports outfit…you did a great job for us ^^

I’m looking forward to this coming Saturday’s sports day… I’m participating in an event – that is, with other teachers. I hope I’ll be getting a reward… Wahahaha!!

Finally, I’m on MC today to consult a doctor again. Received a diagnose that I don’t really want to know… Haiz… Have to eat medicine again… But the doctor persuaded me that taking the medicine is only going to reduce my pain but it doesn’t help me in recovery. Have to undergo an operation... -_-

Easter

Easter Bun^^

Easter day is today… somehow I feel like I’ve got a new feeling...

John 3:16 "For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life." God is Mighty^^

Tomorrow will be the day which I am looking forward to, but what kind of feeling will that be? I pray that God, stay with me all the time, grant me strength, and wisdom. So that I will be able to understand You even more and grow stronger in Christ in each passing day...

But there’s a sudden minor incident that causes me a little bit worried…But after sharing it with God, He replied me by my prayer, and actually made clear of my mind that what i am actually looking for in this "****"…I hope to share this incident with “her”… Lord, please guide our conversation...

Lastly, I’m looking forward to water baptism, sports day, sis Helena and bro Alvis's wedding celebration, trip and the list goes on…may de Lord's blessing be upon us always and forever...

God, I really and truly love you ^^

A Good Memory

A new month starts, I think I’ll write something different, not anything moody...

I want to place my best memories here....

Thinking back, I have been here for 7 months. At first, I wasn’t familiar with this place. But as time passes, I’ve started to become more and more used to this place. But now, I’ve grown used to this place. So I think I wont have problem to go around by myself now...

In this 7 months, lots of things happened, I’m just being trapped in these incidents, cant see clearly even who am I, but what has happened has already happened, what needs to be solved has also been solved. It’s time to revert to my original self...

Here, I didn’t know many friends from Segi College, When lecturing, I’m actually doing my own things, but all my friends came from Hope Church, and those who are working with me. I think this is what God has arranged for me because I never expect that these friends will appear in my life. Thank God for the arrangement...

With their support, I grow a lot in Christ...

At first, I was a stranger to God. But eventually, I felt He is walking with me in my life, arranging everything for me and protecting me from time to time. The growth like this really made me shocked. Before I came here, I’ll be the first one to reject if any of my friend invites me to the church gathering. But here, I’ll be the first one to agree. I’m really happy to see myself changing....

Besides, I’m poor in English speaking. Before this, at my hometown, I never communicate with people in English besides in college. After I came here, I realized English is so important to me esp in my work place. All my colleagues communicate in English (they can’t really communicate in mandarin). When I just started this job, it was stressful for me but I’m glad that they are willing to teach and correct me. Now, I’m much better although I still can’t achieve the excellent result, but I wish to speak proper English one day. So friends, try to use English to communicate with me next time when you see me. Whenever I’m wrong, please try to correct me.

However, I thank you all for growing up with me, this is a great encouragement for me.

Ok, following is some photos to share...

This is my group photo. At my church, the college group is divided into 3, PJC1, Help College and KDU college. And this is my group, PJC1...

Boys who love to take photos^^

So many food, took 4 rounds but still can’t finish them...

An unforgettable steamboat day at my house^^

Nice Shot, CLaRa^^ haha

EnJoYinG

Ok, that’s all for today, I’ll be waiting for more gatherings and good memories...

Finally, 23 more days I’ll be travelling to Bangkok for vacation with a group of my church friends. Counting down for it...

Always pray for this coming journey, CLaRa.

30th March 2009, Monday

Found out that..Happy CLaRa is lost...
Not wanting to see the current CLaRa, feels that she's not acting herself...
When will she be able to put a "stop" to her current self?
And find her "true self" back?
Can You hear my prayer?
After waking up from a nap, I've suddenly thought and missed my parents...
Is that Your voice asking me to search for a time to go back home and accompany them?
Ya I know...You have Your own plans...but can You please stop being so quiet?
What is Your plan?
I am really going to be angry...Lord...
Please tell me what you are planning for?
Please tell me how should I plan for myself?
Can you hear me?
Can you hear me?

Clara is sick and is on MC today

I really don't know how many times I should sick in a year and all those are non-sense sickness?? Previously just had two injection of antibiotic and should last for one year?? I think I should take care of myself seriously. Is the sickness become a part of my life? I hate it-_-

This morning I called up the school and take a sick leave. Actually this morning Ms Me Ping cook some porridge for me but I’m really sorry because I take leave suddenly...I want to thank Ms Me Ping for your porridge and your message that actually will make me recover faster..hehe see you tomorrow...

I cooked porridge this noon, still not bad right?-_-

Haiz, so many medicine again? -_-

Eldest sister is going to marry tomorrow and left only me who can’t go back :(

I miss you all, Dad, Mum, Brothers and Sisters...............

My Day

Today I got a good news from the Immigration Center saying that I can come on Monday to do the things that I needed to do…it’s really a good news for me..because these things made me worry so many days.. i tot something bad will happen and cant make it..but really thank God I got the call from them…so Monday I will be on leave for doing this thing…hope I can settle it on Monday..I also need thank my Manager Miss Pat that she allowed me to take leave AGAIN haha…thanks a lot..

Well, theses few days I really feel that I have changed a lot…I relied too much from people..last time I only relied on myself because I believe I can solve my problem without anyone helping…Nowadays I realized that I don’t really like my colleagues on MC or take Leave…Hope they’re with me all the time during the office hours…what am I scared about? I also dunno...so Ms Pat, Ms Me Ping or Ms Moh Lee..please don leave me alone in de office next time haha… I feel like I’m still a little kid…wanting adults to stay by my side all the time…or else I’ll feel scared.

Well, I fell sick today…my colleagues asked me to head back for rest but I wanted to take responsibilities of my work so in the end, I stayed…I rested at a room for 3 hours, but I didn’t feel any better..When I walked out of the room, a teacher was shocked to see my face being so pale…so I went to the toilet to take a look at how pale it is…indeed it was really pale…-_-

My colleagues are caring…MS Me Ping told me that she’ll be asking her maid to cook porridge for me tomorrow…I’m so touched…everytime when I see her, I would usually think about my mom..maybe she’s giving out the “scent” of a mother… she’s like a gorgeous mother…I really like her being a caring person…also, I’ll like to thank you and Mr Chuang for bringing me to LRT station after work^^


Besides my colleagues, I have noticed that the uncle from the canteen is treating me well too… my colleagues had been jealous hahaha..because yesterday when I bought a can of air bunga, I only had to pay 50 cents for it! Two of my colleagues saw this and thought that it’s really cheap and decided to buy it too. But who knows, the uncle was charging them RM1.60…because of this we were laughing out from the bottom of our hearts ^^No matter what, I’ll have to thank this uncle^^

That’s all for today… Clara is tired…been numb with her life now…no more feelings…I hope tomorrow will be a better day…

A Wonderful Night

God, I thank You for the dinner tonight^^
It’s a very worth dinner, Thank God for Your Grace enough for us. It’s really relax after sharing out something in my heart:)

I like to talk with the Angel that You sent to me, She really can solve my problems, This is Your Grace^^ Thank You:)

God I pray that She can continue to learn Your words in Your grace, may Your blessings always be with her:)

God, at the meanwhile, I pray for my growth in the Lord, Learn to pray, improve my ENglish Speaking, I believe that by the power of God, I can do it^^

In Jesus Wonderful Name I pray, Amen!

Philippians 4:4 Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: REJOICE!

Friday, 20 March 2009

"Dear Heavenly Father, at this moment I come to You, I want to have all the experience in my life that You have provided for me in Jesus. I thank that You bring me and Lead me in this time. I too have to thank my Shepherd, Kim because She is willing to help me and correct me whenever there's something wrong. She is also the one who guide me thru these two chapters. Thank You for saving me My Lord. I pray that the Holy Spirit might come upon me. May the Glory, Love and the power of God come upon Kim and my Life. Thank You, Lord Jesus with my true heart, In Jesus Christ name I pray in thanksgiving, Amen."

Sunday, 15 March, 2009

Everything should be over…
You and I…
After a call, the past memories stirred up…
Haven’t I told myself not to turn back and mourn over those memories?

I have told myself that the past memories would not be coming back to me,but,is turning back really the answer that I seek for?

Then what is it for when I was trying so hard to forget about them???????

I have been missing my family recently…but when would I be able to return to my home???But what if I return to my home???

I dislike being wrapped with love by my parents, not because I am ignorant towards the feeling of happiness when I’m blessed with happiness, but it’s just that it feels I’ll never grow to be independent...

I am exhausted, because no matter what I involved myself in, it's jz seems like I’ve always makes myself tired...

But why am I doing this???

Sekolah Sri Nobel. Lolx, CLaRa is Back

Lolx...It’s been a while that I haven’t updated this blog..hehe^^

I am very very very busy nowadays…have to work and also have to attend some classes at church,but I like my life filled with work and activities and I think living like this is colourful^^

I started my job since last month at Sri Nobel SchooL..it’s a private schooL. I work as an admin in that school with many fine and funny staff^^but wht I really appreciate is that they are really willing to teach me..Thank God^^

But in this one month, there are a lot of things happening in my life and makes me feel like giving up my job at Sri Nobel School and it's something bad that happened in my life, but through this experience, it made me feel more matured in many views..

Hmmm but in the end, why did I not resign?? It’s just because my that lovely colleagues Ms Me ping, Ms Elaine and Ms Pat calling me and sent me a lot of encouraging words..besides that they also told me tht they love me and like the way I work and hoping that I will think over about my decision (whether or not to resign?)...

After receiving their calls…I kept on thinking why do I need to resign? Besides, there are so many good colleagues and cute students with me..do I really want to resign? And what for do I have to resign?? Just because of that small incident happening?? Clara Tang, you are really so childish…

I repeatedly asked for guidance from my lovely God and prayed for it...but God’s plan is really great…finally I decided to return to my work…so when I was back to my work…what I’m touched is that my colleagues and teachers and even students gave me a lots of concern…I don't know them very well, but the way they concern me is really touching and appreciating..I love you all very much and thanks for everything…^^

On Wednesday what’s really surprising and touched me is that they planned secretly to celebrate me for welcoming back…Thanks once again for the celebration and welcoming me back. I have started to love my job very much^^ LOVE my Colleagues, students and everyone at Nobel SchooL^^and thank God for giving me this opportunity to work with all of you..^^really love You ALL..

Five of Us Ms Pat, Ms Me Ping, CLaRa, Ms Elaine, and Ms Moh Lee

Manager Ms Pat, HR Ms Elaine and I

Principal Ms Michelle and I

Well…I am really nice to meet u all…Happy holiday to Nobel sch^^



Chuang CaLeb…hahaha Ms CLaRa gonna miss YOu in this one week holiday..ohohohoho…
See you after holiday^^

Tuesday

Hahahahaha~ my mood is not bad these days, besides having fun, still having fun hehehe…guess what, I haven’t spent a cent since I reached SIBU…Never have the day like this at West M’sia, everything needs money de….-_-

What I’m sad is my Mimi said I’m fatter this time-_-huhuhu~Faint…But its true la, because I always have supper at West M’sia…But hehe I don’t think I want to keep fit this time lo arhaahahha…Hardly can enjoy nice foods here, want to keep myself from eating? Cheh~I think I can’t do it lo... hahaha Just let it fat and back to west m’sia just think of it ba….ohohohohoho~

Normally I'll pass by the college everytime I go out so today I turned into my diploma college before I went out to town -_- hmmm I really miss my ex lecturers…miss the time you taught me...miss the time I spent there…-_-




Hehehe~I really eat a lot recently, very very de full, Goshhh~ from the photos, my face really looks FAT liao lo haizzzz…but today I just did treatment and cut my hair…hehehe is it looks fat and cute?? Hehehehehehehehe hahahahahahah hohohohohohoho~

Ok, tonight have to sleep earlier, because I promised my Mimi to clean up the house for her tomorrow hehehe…Hopefully I can do it la, although I’m lazy hehehe~

Pray that I can wake up early tomorrow^^
God bless~

Home Sweet Home

Lol, Clara is back to home ya...hehehe~

One hour and 45 mins flight makes me crazy....huuuu~ Today’s flight is so full...many passengers go back to sibu with me ya hehehe^^

In the flight, my mood was messed up, don't know what will happen on this time back to home?? But thank God that I felt relax when I reached home, enjoy and really own house is the most comfortable one...hehehe...

I asked my mum a stupid question...

Mum, can we move our house to kl??? If cant, move my room also enough hahaha...but duuuuuuuu~ my mum din answer anything...make me feel sad ler...hahaha-_-

This is my cute room..hehehe…it belongs to me since today ohohohoho, my third sis married and hopefully you won't see this la, o else I’ll be killed by u, I’m sure...hahaha~

Suddenly think that I don't want to go back kl anymore...hehehe

Anyway...Waiting for tomorrow, Friends, It's time to come out "limteh" lo...hehehe~