30th March 2009, Monday

Found out that..Happy CLaRa is lost...
Not wanting to see the current CLaRa, feels that she's not acting herself...
When will she be able to put a "stop" to her current self?
And find her "true self" back?
Can You hear my prayer?
After waking up from a nap, I've suddenly thought and missed my parents...
Is that Your voice asking me to search for a time to go back home and accompany them?
Ya I know...You have Your own plans...but can You please stop being so quiet?
What is Your plan?
I am really going to be angry...Lord...
Please tell me what you are planning for?
Please tell me how should I plan for myself?
Can you hear me?
Can you hear me?

Clara is sick and is on MC today

I really don't know how many times I should sick in a year and all those are non-sense sickness?? Previously just had two injection of antibiotic and should last for one year?? I think I should take care of myself seriously. Is the sickness become a part of my life? I hate it-_-

This morning I called up the school and take a sick leave. Actually this morning Ms Me Ping cook some porridge for me but I’m really sorry because I take leave suddenly...I want to thank Ms Me Ping for your porridge and your message that actually will make me recover faster..hehe see you tomorrow...

I cooked porridge this noon, still not bad right?-_-

Haiz, so many medicine again? -_-

Eldest sister is going to marry tomorrow and left only me who can’t go back :(

I miss you all, Dad, Mum, Brothers and Sisters...............

My Day

Today I got a good news from the Immigration Center saying that I can come on Monday to do the things that I needed to do…it’s really a good news for me..because these things made me worry so many days.. i tot something bad will happen and cant make it..but really thank God I got the call from them…so Monday I will be on leave for doing this thing…hope I can settle it on Monday..I also need thank my Manager Miss Pat that she allowed me to take leave AGAIN haha…thanks a lot..

Well, theses few days I really feel that I have changed a lot…I relied too much from people..last time I only relied on myself because I believe I can solve my problem without anyone helping…Nowadays I realized that I don’t really like my colleagues on MC or take Leave…Hope they’re with me all the time during the office hours…what am I scared about? I also dunno...so Ms Pat, Ms Me Ping or Ms Moh Lee..please don leave me alone in de office next time haha… I feel like I’m still a little kid…wanting adults to stay by my side all the time…or else I’ll feel scared.

Well, I fell sick today…my colleagues asked me to head back for rest but I wanted to take responsibilities of my work so in the end, I stayed…I rested at a room for 3 hours, but I didn’t feel any better..When I walked out of the room, a teacher was shocked to see my face being so pale…so I went to the toilet to take a look at how pale it is…indeed it was really pale…-_-

My colleagues are caring…MS Me Ping told me that she’ll be asking her maid to cook porridge for me tomorrow…I’m so touched…everytime when I see her, I would usually think about my mom..maybe she’s giving out the “scent” of a mother… she’s like a gorgeous mother…I really like her being a caring person…also, I’ll like to thank you and Mr Chuang for bringing me to LRT station after work^^


Besides my colleagues, I have noticed that the uncle from the canteen is treating me well too… my colleagues had been jealous hahaha..because yesterday when I bought a can of air bunga, I only had to pay 50 cents for it! Two of my colleagues saw this and thought that it’s really cheap and decided to buy it too. But who knows, the uncle was charging them RM1.60…because of this we were laughing out from the bottom of our hearts ^^No matter what, I’ll have to thank this uncle^^

That’s all for today… Clara is tired…been numb with her life now…no more feelings…I hope tomorrow will be a better day…

A Wonderful Night

God, I thank You for the dinner tonight^^
It’s a very worth dinner, Thank God for Your Grace enough for us. It’s really relax after sharing out something in my heart:)

I like to talk with the Angel that You sent to me, She really can solve my problems, This is Your Grace^^ Thank You:)

God I pray that She can continue to learn Your words in Your grace, may Your blessings always be with her:)

God, at the meanwhile, I pray for my growth in the Lord, Learn to pray, improve my ENglish Speaking, I believe that by the power of God, I can do it^^

In Jesus Wonderful Name I pray, Amen!

Philippians 4:4 Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: REJOICE!

Friday, 20 March 2009

"Dear Heavenly Father, at this moment I come to You, I want to have all the experience in my life that You have provided for me in Jesus. I thank that You bring me and Lead me in this time. I too have to thank my Shepherd, Kim because She is willing to help me and correct me whenever there's something wrong. She is also the one who guide me thru these two chapters. Thank You for saving me My Lord. I pray that the Holy Spirit might come upon me. May the Glory, Love and the power of God come upon Kim and my Life. Thank You, Lord Jesus with my true heart, In Jesus Christ name I pray in thanksgiving, Amen."

Sunday, 15 March, 2009

Everything should be over…
You and I…
After a call, the past memories stirred up…
Haven’t I told myself not to turn back and mourn over those memories?

I have told myself that the past memories would not be coming back to me,but,is turning back really the answer that I seek for?

Then what is it for when I was trying so hard to forget about them???????

I have been missing my family recently…but when would I be able to return to my home???But what if I return to my home???

I dislike being wrapped with love by my parents, not because I am ignorant towards the feeling of happiness when I’m blessed with happiness, but it’s just that it feels I’ll never grow to be independent...

I am exhausted, because no matter what I involved myself in, it's jz seems like I’ve always makes myself tired...

But why am I doing this???

Sekolah Sri Nobel. Lolx, CLaRa is Back

Lolx...It’s been a while that I haven’t updated this blog..hehe^^

I am very very very busy nowadays…have to work and also have to attend some classes at church,but I like my life filled with work and activities and I think living like this is colourful^^

I started my job since last month at Sri Nobel SchooL..it’s a private schooL. I work as an admin in that school with many fine and funny staff^^but wht I really appreciate is that they are really willing to teach me..Thank God^^

But in this one month, there are a lot of things happening in my life and makes me feel like giving up my job at Sri Nobel School and it's something bad that happened in my life, but through this experience, it made me feel more matured in many views..

Hmmm but in the end, why did I not resign?? It’s just because my that lovely colleagues Ms Me ping, Ms Elaine and Ms Pat calling me and sent me a lot of encouraging words..besides that they also told me tht they love me and like the way I work and hoping that I will think over about my decision (whether or not to resign?)...

After receiving their calls…I kept on thinking why do I need to resign? Besides, there are so many good colleagues and cute students with me..do I really want to resign? And what for do I have to resign?? Just because of that small incident happening?? Clara Tang, you are really so childish…

I repeatedly asked for guidance from my lovely God and prayed for it...but God’s plan is really great…finally I decided to return to my work…so when I was back to my work…what I’m touched is that my colleagues and teachers and even students gave me a lots of concern…I don't know them very well, but the way they concern me is really touching and appreciating..I love you all very much and thanks for everything…^^

On Wednesday what’s really surprising and touched me is that they planned secretly to celebrate me for welcoming back…Thanks once again for the celebration and welcoming me back. I have started to love my job very much^^ LOVE my Colleagues, students and everyone at Nobel SchooL^^and thank God for giving me this opportunity to work with all of you..^^really love You ALL..

Five of Us Ms Pat, Ms Me Ping, CLaRa, Ms Elaine, and Ms Moh Lee

Manager Ms Pat, HR Ms Elaine and I

Principal Ms Michelle and I

Well…I am really nice to meet u all…Happy holiday to Nobel sch^^



Chuang CaLeb…hahaha Ms CLaRa gonna miss YOu in this one week holiday..ohohohoho…
See you after holiday^^